boys do suck
so my first real attempt at having a relationship is coming to an end i beleive. ive gone out with a lot of guys this summer. but i dunno im wasnt ready for a relationship i guess. and then i met cory last weekend. omg hes so sweet and it was so adorable that first night. im gonna make u all sick. but we were playing bullshit and taking shots ( haha remember doing that with amanda too) and i called him every time. and he was always telling the truth. so i ended up gettin really drunk and throwing up. hah i know sounds gross right. but he came in with a sprite and held my hair back and rubbed my back.(obviously ive been way deprived of affection lately)so then i was all embarrased and told him it was his fault. he kissed me on the forehead ( i was puking so he couldnt kiss my mouth u know) and then i went outside to get some air because shayna doesnt have air conditioner cuz she sucks. and we raced each other to the park ( he let me win) and played on the monkey bars because there was no swings. and we talked. and it was pretty. and then he made us all pizza and kept hugging me and kissing me. eeck i was so happy about that. and then everyone was leaving because shays house is kinda small for all those people and he wanted to stay with me on the couch but someone was already there so i went home with him. and we just layed there and talked about everything. and it was wonderful. he calls me every night when i get home and brings me lunch sometimes at work. hes such a freaking sweetheart. did i forget to say he made me pancakes when i woke up the next morning. ;) he did!!!! but anyways cory is an alcoholic. he called me last night drunk. upset because i wouldnt come see him. and hes going to get his liscense taken away soon because he got a DUI. did i mention hes 21. too old for me according to my parents. so with all the good stuff i had to add the bad. i guess if u read through all of that u are prolly laughing now. i suck right. always going for the bad boys. im just waiting for this to blow up in my face. parrt of it will be my fault. i dont even know what to do now. but i really like him................