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Hi i guess I'm still here. Im impressed with the unconstrained nature I felt on LJ that I have not beem allowed since on the internet. I should be embarassed but it served a huge purpose in my 20's.
I think when myspace and later fb opened up we became more and more related to who we actually are and not a creative idea of how we described our lives.... I suppose at least me but I can think of others it rings true to as well...prob. Anyway that led to being more boring and ultimately more mundane. I feel like here adventures were done and we were excited about describing them... Im not going to say that the same thing is lost in real time to sound old and claim the past is better than now but, more so that we could be mindful.of exsisting with a purpose even if to get drunk and reliving it later. Im not sure I relive as much now and that seems unfortinate.... And certainly means my brain has changed to some extent.... I'm not saying worse or better... But different. There is a lot miss but I changed a lot to escape really bad lows, unhealthy lifestyle and such. If i want to revert and can:t say I have grown and improved over time that seems probelmatic too.....