Tomorrow is only a day away...
So it has been a really long time since I have updated my journal....I don't even know who will read this. Anyway, I leave for France tomorrow and I'm not gonna lie, I am not excited. I am nervous as all get out. When I think about why I am nervous it's not so bad....speaking is my number one worry, then the family, will they be nice? will they like me? you know that kind of thing, but i do have faith for that part. Whatever happens is a part of God's plan and it will all work out...Anyway, I am a little bit nervous to fly, but once we are in the air it should be too bad. BUt I am also scared to leave my momma. We have gotten so close over the past 8 weeks that it is going to be really hard to be away for 5 months. However on the upside she is coming over for my 21st birthday which just so happens to be Easter. SO that should be fun, although I never imagined celebrating my 21st birthday with my parents. But hey, life throws you curves.
so thats about it. i miss my little like crazy. Although she might take a little that I might be insanely jealous over, its ok b/c I know that I am her favorite alpha chi...;)
SO right now I am "babysitting" at church. The girls I babysit for are in choir right now, so I am hanging out at church. I am surfing the internet in my moms office. My momma is sick which is sad, b/c crying just makes it worse....you know, lots of tears at the airport. But maggie made it so I'm sure I'll be ok. I may be balling on the plane, but thats ok b/c I have a friend on my flight. Hopefully I will be so tired that I sleep the whole way there.
Tomorrow i need to call my family and let them know some information about me. I am suddenly afraid that they didnt recieve my letter. So that is scary, I'm nervous just thinking about it. Anyway....so thats on my plate. I am trying to talk to everyone i can before I go to say goodbye, but it is pretyt hard....anyway, ill make it, ill be strong....
sorry this post is a bit incoherent, my mind is racing...
have a great day,
~aurevoir~
so thats about it. i miss my little like crazy. Although she might take a little that I might be insanely jealous over, its ok b/c I know that I am her favorite alpha chi...;)
SO right now I am "babysitting" at church. The girls I babysit for are in choir right now, so I am hanging out at church. I am surfing the internet in my moms office. My momma is sick which is sad, b/c crying just makes it worse....you know, lots of tears at the airport. But maggie made it so I'm sure I'll be ok. I may be balling on the plane, but thats ok b/c I have a friend on my flight. Hopefully I will be so tired that I sleep the whole way there.
Tomorrow i need to call my family and let them know some information about me. I am suddenly afraid that they didnt recieve my letter. So that is scary, I'm nervous just thinking about it. Anyway....so thats on my plate. I am trying to talk to everyone i can before I go to say goodbye, but it is pretyt hard....anyway, ill make it, ill be strong....
sorry this post is a bit incoherent, my mind is racing...
have a great day,
~aurevoir~