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twizenty one - yeah so i graduated yesterday, it was very strange. we go there and wait in this room for a really long time, and it was so hot because there was so many of us in there lining up according to majors and alphabetical order. then we finally started to walk and we got all excited because after we walked down 7 flights of stairs we were gonna walk into the graduation and finally get to sit down...well we did get to sit down, and we sat there for another 2.5 hours, 75% of it was the thousands of names that were announced before mine, as i was literally in the 3rd to last row of the entire graduation...lemme tell you, at a TAMU graduation thats a big deal, it took forever....i must have sent/recieved 60 text messages, no seriously. then we finall got to get up, we walked to the side theres this huge building, then they say your name, and poof before you make it across the stage they say the next one, and its over.....its like when you have to pee really relaly bad, and the closer you get to the bathroom, the more you have to go....thats how it was at grad. the closer we got the longer it seemed to take to get up there, but unlike with peeing, it was so anti-climatic, ur just done at the snap of a finger....BEEEEWWWW and its over.....on a side note, i was "thrilled" and that thrilled must be put in quotations because it is NOT to be take literally, anyway i was "thrilled" to hear clapping and yelling when i went across, and also to hear "GO SLUTTY!!" realy loud.....ok ill admit it was funny, but geez at my graduation? i saw one of my guy friends last night at northgate, and he said he saw me on TV walking across and her the slutty yell, so it wasnt just obvious to me
today (saturday) is my last night in college station for awhile since im going to europe....im sad about that because i really love my life here, (aside from being broken off last night)and im going to be gone for a whole month.....im sure ill have fun there tho
its funny to me how my life is, how my emotions are, how i act. when nothing is happening in my life, thats just it i wont relaly be happy or sad...and ill get really bored and strive for some happiness however i cant get it, or some excitement....usually its in the form of somehow acting bad - but not always. but then when im on top of the world and so happy it seems like i fall into the thinking that it will continue this way, and nothing can stop it, and then when something happens that isnt 100% good, my emotions go south further than they normally would...thats weird to me, because i would think that if i was so elated and things were going to well - that it would take extra to bring me down, but it seems like it takes less because i expect everything to be so awesome....and its in times like these that ill obsess over little things and ill delve into them a lot deeper than i ever should, ill analyze them, then reanalyze them....then take a step back and do it again - its a case of my talents affecting me in a bad way (the ability to read people)....anyway im not sure if most people are like that or not, not the analzying the high-low thing i mean...but logically it seems that it should be harder to bring you down when you are on a high like that, but we all know im not really the most normal person in the world
i guess i wont be writing in this for awhlie since ill be gone, maybe ill just update it with a sentence or 2 while im in europe....i will not be using my phone in europe so if you want to contact me you'll have to email me at datboyurn@aol.com, and ill do my best to email back.....yes ill try to take pictures
i think im done with this update, yeah it prolly sucked but hey we cant score a touchdown everytime we are in the redzone
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today (saturday) is my last night in college station for awhile since im going to europe....im sad about that because i really love my life here, (aside from being broken off last night)and im going to be gone for a whole month.....im sure ill have fun there tho
its funny to me how my life is, how my emotions are, how i act. when nothing is happening in my life, thats just it i wont relaly be happy or sad...and ill get really bored and strive for some happiness however i cant get it, or some excitement....usually its in the form of somehow acting bad - but not always. but then when im on top of the world and so happy it seems like i fall into the thinking that it will continue this way, and nothing can stop it, and then when something happens that isnt 100% good, my emotions go south further than they normally would...thats weird to me, because i would think that if i was so elated and things were going to well - that it would take extra to bring me down, but it seems like it takes less because i expect everything to be so awesome....and its in times like these that ill obsess over little things and ill delve into them a lot deeper than i ever should, ill analyze them, then reanalyze them....then take a step back and do it again - its a case of my talents affecting me in a bad way (the ability to read people)....anyway im not sure if most people are like that or not, not the analzying the high-low thing i mean...but logically it seems that it should be harder to bring you down when you are on a high like that, but we all know im not really the most normal person in the world
i guess i wont be writing in this for awhlie since ill be gone, maybe ill just update it with a sentence or 2 while im in europe....i will not be using my phone in europe so if you want to contact me you'll have to email me at datboyurn@aol.com, and ill do my best to email back.....yes ill try to take pictures
i think im done with this update, yeah it prolly sucked but hey we cant score a touchdown everytime we are in the redzone
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