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15 - wow its been awhile since ive written in my journal, i just get so f-ing busy i dont want to write in it when i get home....and so i know a lot of my fans are pissed, there have been various riots throught the continental US, but a hott 21 year old can only do so much to please those who are obsessed with him - oh i mean ill try to update it asap, but for now....i can only promise this update....so what do i write about today? im not feeling anything, and i dont use my journal to update my life really, just to express thoughts and all that good stuff (as expressed in my first journal)- i guess ill talk about my current life and go from there, cuz ive got nothing right now
im going to florida for spring break to see my whore sister and gay brother - i guess thats why im a gay whore, cuz i get it from them...anyhow we should have fun, im planning on just eating a lot and not touching alcohol at all - i mean i think i need to grow up and quit drinking so much, so i figure what better time to start than spring break right? it should be a fun time anyhow, lots of bs-ing and macking (not me im innocent) - and of course lots of sun
i lost 10 pounds from the flu, that really sucked
i wore my earring for the first time in months the other day - it sucked putting it in cuz it was semi closed up
i hope the astros dont suck this year
i am hott
so here i am, trying to cap of my first journal in a long time, and frankly at this point it sucks....so im trying to think of what to write about - i ask myself, what is my favorite subject? well of course its myself, but i talked all about me above, so ill save it for 5 minutes from now when i talk to another person...what are my next few favorite things? well i love irony and of course attraction - thats it, i got it...im gonna talk about attraction once again, and of course ill force myself into the topic somehow
ok so i have been having a lil comment war with my seeeeeeeeeeeester tammy for the last few days on her journal....we started making jokes about modeling and i claimed i was a baller - she said i had nothign to show for it, just an offer....so i responded with i turned it down because i didnt think it was what i was put on this earth for....and so just now i started to think about that....i have never once used my looks for anything good - not once, ive only used them to get my way, to get something i wanted, or to get attention, never anything good....so i started to further think, how is it possible to use good looks for the betterment of those other than urself?? i mean sure i need to not use looks to get what i want, but thats not doing something good, thats just not doing whats wrong (and btw, dont think im saying i can always get my way), so is it possible? if i really was supposed to be a model as tammy brought up, and not a counselor like i say, then what good am i doing?? i mean it seems so selfish to me, to be on this earth with talents that can help other people...yet not using them - i guess you have to look at it a little differently though, i mean people are getting entertained by ur looks, and u could possibly give urself in other ways...like dontating and doing other stuff on the side to use ur talents for the betterment of others...i mean honestly, i dont have a rich and illustrious career ahead in modeling, but its just really interesting to think about everything from that aspect of it...wow my stomach is suddenly hurting me so bad so i have to end this
ok so this is the 2nd day im writing, because yesterday i thought i had kidney stones again - luckily it was a false alarm...just bad pains....anyway i dont feel like writing anything else in this journal, sorry it sucked....maybe some1 can give me a real subject to write about, i have to say real cuz if not bob and paul will leave comments about how i shoudl write about anus or about being a homo or something like that...ok sluts, im peacin it for now
im going to florida for spring break to see my whore sister and gay brother - i guess thats why im a gay whore, cuz i get it from them...anyhow we should have fun, im planning on just eating a lot and not touching alcohol at all - i mean i think i need to grow up and quit drinking so much, so i figure what better time to start than spring break right? it should be a fun time anyhow, lots of bs-ing and macking (not me im innocent) - and of course lots of sun
i lost 10 pounds from the flu, that really sucked
i wore my earring for the first time in months the other day - it sucked putting it in cuz it was semi closed up
i hope the astros dont suck this year
i am hott
so here i am, trying to cap of my first journal in a long time, and frankly at this point it sucks....so im trying to think of what to write about - i ask myself, what is my favorite subject? well of course its myself, but i talked all about me above, so ill save it for 5 minutes from now when i talk to another person...what are my next few favorite things? well i love irony and of course attraction - thats it, i got it...im gonna talk about attraction once again, and of course ill force myself into the topic somehow
ok so i have been having a lil comment war with my seeeeeeeeeeeester tammy for the last few days on her journal....we started making jokes about modeling and i claimed i was a baller - she said i had nothign to show for it, just an offer....so i responded with i turned it down because i didnt think it was what i was put on this earth for....and so just now i started to think about that....i have never once used my looks for anything good - not once, ive only used them to get my way, to get something i wanted, or to get attention, never anything good....so i started to further think, how is it possible to use good looks for the betterment of those other than urself?? i mean sure i need to not use looks to get what i want, but thats not doing something good, thats just not doing whats wrong (and btw, dont think im saying i can always get my way), so is it possible? if i really was supposed to be a model as tammy brought up, and not a counselor like i say, then what good am i doing?? i mean it seems so selfish to me, to be on this earth with talents that can help other people...yet not using them - i guess you have to look at it a little differently though, i mean people are getting entertained by ur looks, and u could possibly give urself in other ways...like dontating and doing other stuff on the side to use ur talents for the betterment of others...i mean honestly, i dont have a rich and illustrious career ahead in modeling, but its just really interesting to think about everything from that aspect of it...wow my stomach is suddenly hurting me so bad so i have to end this
ok so this is the 2nd day im writing, because yesterday i thought i had kidney stones again - luckily it was a false alarm...just bad pains....anyway i dont feel like writing anything else in this journal, sorry it sucked....maybe some1 can give me a real subject to write about, i have to say real cuz if not bob and paul will leave comments about how i shoudl write about anus or about being a homo or something like that...ok sluts, im peacin it for now