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I feel as if I should be writing more. When the band first started, I used to keep a paper journal. It was brown, leather-bound. The pages are faded now, wrinkled around the edges from use. I started writing in pencil, but that smudged, and I haven't written anything in pencil since. I'm not sure why I prefer pens. Maybe it's the permanence. The fact that, once you write something down, it's set, and you can't erase it. You can try to cover it up, but the words will always be there.
You can't erase the way you feel about someone, especially if it runs deeper than you thought it did. You can try and hide behind a façade of nonchalance and indifference, attempt to bury passions, but it's impossible. There are some feelings I possess for people that I would never want to hide, and they know who they are. It varies, from a new friendship to a platonic bond to an unconditional love.
I bring my old journals with me, just to look back at the words. I've heard it said that you're never really supposed to forget your past, that it strengthens you, that you can learn from your mistakes and your hardships.
I've spent the last few months making so many memories for myself, and I have some of you to thank for that, and especially you. (I love you.)
You can't erase the way you feel about someone, especially if it runs deeper than you thought it did. You can try and hide behind a façade of nonchalance and indifference, attempt to bury passions, but it's impossible. There are some feelings I possess for people that I would never want to hide, and they know who they are. It varies, from a new friendship to a platonic bond to an unconditional love.
I bring my old journals with me, just to look back at the words. I've heard it said that you're never really supposed to forget your past, that it strengthens you, that you can learn from your mistakes and your hardships.
I've spent the last few months making so many memories for myself, and I have some of you to thank for that, and especially you. (I love you.)