May 08, 2007 03:31
Hey mom, whats up, its 3 in the morning, nothing really has been going on lately... I've been trying to get a job but I can't, it just never happens but thats okay I guess cuz Im a college boy now, I'm going to be a writer, which is gunna be crazy, you know. Everyone has talked down upon me for a while now, but now they say how proud they are. I've done everything I've said I was gunna, I can drive, I have my GED, and im going to college.
Ma' I dream about you every night, its always something crazy, always just hanging out. just straight chillin, Jessica always says to meet her in her dreams and I lie to her Ma', because I know where I'm going every night I go to sleep. Im coming to your door, so we can go cause big scenes at the store, and you can buy me random nonsense, Or just sit around the house, and have you try to beat me up all the time and say something stupid like "BIFF" and Im like that shit isnt a real word... and I get pissed,
Started to work out again, started running too, I think it's the sun being out that makes me want to be outside all the time, I even picked up playing basketball with the guys again.
I miss you so much and so does everyone else, theirs not a day that goes by where someone doesnt say mom this or mom that, remember when mom did this or made that, it's hard with you not here anymore, and I know nobody just comes out and says it... but your supposed to be there when I come through the front door, and your not, and you wont be there ever again...