Feb 08, 2007 01:06
Hey mom, I started school yesterday, it sucks just like I knew it would. But I have to finish it you know? I've been trying to get a job, me and the guys are trying to go get trained this summer by Jimmy Jacobs and Josh "Jud" Abercrombie I know you don't know who they are. but their really good, its 600 dollars to go, and its like 5 months away so I need a job asap. I applied at like every mcdonalds ever been built but no luck.
Sometimes I get depressed when I remember you mom, I think of how proud youd be of me. I try for you, Thinking of you is the only way I can keep myself motivated to better myself. I came home today from school, and wished I could tell you, wished I could see your smile that always brighten my day. Wished I could have you punch me and hit me, say your stupid little quips, wish you could give me a big hug and tell me that everything is gunna be okay. I dream that your here, and we go and have fun, or just sit around and talk. and its never like other dreams. I wake up, and I hear your words bouncing around in my head, stupid little things. "hey! buttface!" and other things like that, I walk upstairs and think that your up there, somewhere, and it makes me wanna sit up there. But mom your not there and I wanna see you mom, I want to see you again!