Lord of War
I just finished the movie Lord of War and I have to say it's one of the movies that leaves one in a somber mood. A good movie if you're ok with an ending that leaves you thinking rather than feeling jazzed up or anything. I tried to play some World of Warcraft but I just can't get into it right now, probably because of my mood. It's hard to describe... or perhaps it just feels that way. It's the kind of mood where you're serious but you could easily smile or make a joke, where you want to listen to music that's got that somber tone to it, like the Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven. It's the kind of mood where you want to talk to someone but you know that if you were to do so you wouldn't know what to talk about. It's the kind of mood that feels almost right when you're sitting in the dark typing on the computer at 5 a.m. in the morning. When you give anything a try, you usually find that few things are as hard as they seem. Granted that doesn't mean they'll be easy but even so, the fact that they aren't as hard as you thought they would be provides one with hope. Tomorrow, Sunday, is going to be my 18th birthday and I'm pretty happy about it really. Not because I feel it will change anything, because really it won't, but just because. I'm trying to get all the people that I can over to my house since my parents are gone and I'll be able to make use of the whole house. I actually feel like my birthday is more of an excuse to get people together rather than the actual reason for the gathering. I enjoy spending time with my friends and when we all can get together and hang out, for whatever reason, I usually have a good time. During the visit of my good Canadian friend Alex I think I've learned a valuable skill, the asking of various people to lunch. Occasionally it's nice to just go to lunch with a friend, but usually I'm not the one who asks. As a point of fact since I've found myself to be so ineffective at organizing things I rarely try to make any plans of any kind, I just sort of wait until other people do and then hop on board. Also within the past few days I've discovered a few new places to eat at that are rather nice places to go to lunch at, not to mention that they have very good food but aren't too expensive that you can't afford to eat there but once every so often. I'm not saying you could eat at these places every day but once or twice a week isn't out of the question.
Jumping away from from that particular topic, I find it interesting to note how differently the house is run when my parents are not home for extended periods of time. I find it even mroe interesting how the house is run when my sister is also gone and I am here alone for extended periods of time. First off, there are less soda cans left lying around because as of late I drink far less soda than I used to and when I do have one it's cleaned up when I'm done. But even then, the build up of empty cans that need to be crushed is smaller. I generate less trash, of course, and things don't seem to get quite as messy. Also I've noticed that I spend less time in my room when everyone else is gone, or if I am in my room my door is wide open and I'm rarely there for long. Unless I get on AIM and even then I may not stay in my room I may just jump back in here periodicly to respond to something someone said. I also notice how, when my parents are gone, my sleeping pattern changes to more nocternal. With no one else sleeping in the house I move around a lot more during the evening and late into the night. I spent from about 1 a.m. to 3 a.m. cleaning and doing laundry and such. That's another thing that changes when I'm here by myself, I clean a great deal more than usual.
Once again jumping topics, since I've mentioned my parents and sister I feel I should also mention my brother. Who I must say is somewhat of a concern. I've always felt my brother is an intellegent individual, read just about anything he's written and you would know what I mean. But itellegence and common sense aren't the same thing, and while he's got a lot more common sense than most people he still seems to be lacking some. I say this more as a point of worry than as a slight against him. I love my brother and I want for him to do well and live a life that he will enjoy, but some times it just seems like he screws himself over because he doesn't keep track of the things that he should, or because he doesn't listen to the advise people give him. There are times I just don't think that my bro thinks about what he does before he does it. He's so caught up in the idea of doing something that he doesn't always think about everything involved before he goes forward and does it. When he moved out I was happy for multiple reasons and I won't lie that one of those reasons was that I wanted the room to myself, but I was also happy for him because he was finally doing something he's wanted to do for years. He's got so much going for him I just don't want to see him screw it up.
Well I believe I've typed the mood out for the most part. It's not completely gone but I've gone on long enough about random stuff so I'm off. Laterdays.
Jumping away from from that particular topic, I find it interesting to note how differently the house is run when my parents are not home for extended periods of time. I find it even mroe interesting how the house is run when my sister is also gone and I am here alone for extended periods of time. First off, there are less soda cans left lying around because as of late I drink far less soda than I used to and when I do have one it's cleaned up when I'm done. But even then, the build up of empty cans that need to be crushed is smaller. I generate less trash, of course, and things don't seem to get quite as messy. Also I've noticed that I spend less time in my room when everyone else is gone, or if I am in my room my door is wide open and I'm rarely there for long. Unless I get on AIM and even then I may not stay in my room I may just jump back in here periodicly to respond to something someone said. I also notice how, when my parents are gone, my sleeping pattern changes to more nocternal. With no one else sleeping in the house I move around a lot more during the evening and late into the night. I spent from about 1 a.m. to 3 a.m. cleaning and doing laundry and such. That's another thing that changes when I'm here by myself, I clean a great deal more than usual.
Once again jumping topics, since I've mentioned my parents and sister I feel I should also mention my brother. Who I must say is somewhat of a concern. I've always felt my brother is an intellegent individual, read just about anything he's written and you would know what I mean. But itellegence and common sense aren't the same thing, and while he's got a lot more common sense than most people he still seems to be lacking some. I say this more as a point of worry than as a slight against him. I love my brother and I want for him to do well and live a life that he will enjoy, but some times it just seems like he screws himself over because he doesn't keep track of the things that he should, or because he doesn't listen to the advise people give him. There are times I just don't think that my bro thinks about what he does before he does it. He's so caught up in the idea of doing something that he doesn't always think about everything involved before he goes forward and does it. When he moved out I was happy for multiple reasons and I won't lie that one of those reasons was that I wanted the room to myself, but I was also happy for him because he was finally doing something he's wanted to do for years. He's got so much going for him I just don't want to see him screw it up.
Well I believe I've typed the mood out for the most part. It's not completely gone but I've gone on long enough about random stuff so I'm off. Laterdays.