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It is a rarity in deed that should take time out of my day to come here and say anything at all. Often times I find that there is so much on my mind that I have a great deal to say and then I get here and suddenly I feel as though I have nothing, all the things I wanted to say I can't for one reason or another or I can't find the right words to properly describe whats going on or I find that I, in fact, have too much to say and don't feel like typing it all out. However I have come here and I have gotten this far so why not go a little further eh? I completed my internship and officially have senior free now. It's cool I guess but sadly the internship didn't quite go the way I had hoped. It was still a nice experience though I must admit. Over the past few weeks I have been giving it a lot of careful thought and come to the conclusion that after I graduate I'll have the summer, then I'm going to enrole at Gulf Coast and work at getting my GED there. Once that's done I intend to apply for some scholarships and maybe a student loan and go to UCF if I can manage it. I have looked at my options and though this is probably the harder path for me to follow I would greatly like to follow it. The other option that stands before me is to go to Gulf Coast and then FSU. If I go this way I won't have to leave home but that is precisely why I wish to go to UCF. I don't want to stay here for too long after I graduate. I was talking to my father a while back and I could tell just by the way he talked and what he said that he wants me to go to the FSU branch here so that I won't have to leave home. I simply do not wish to do this. There are several reasons behind my desire to go to UCF but the key reason is that I do not wish to stay here in this house any longer than I must. I don't even want to leave this place out of any hatred for it. I will miss this place a great deal if I do manage to follow the path I wish to, I just don't want to stay here because if I do I will get too comfortable with it. I have found that I have a difficult time stepping out of my comfort zones and if I can manage to go to UCF it would be a really big step out of my comfort zone and help to push me further towards doing things that I truly enjoy. Besides, I love my dad dearly, but I do not want to be under his thumb for my whole life. I have a feeling he and I are going to split hairs over this when it comes down to it but that's in the future so I'm not going to concern myself with it too much now. All I have to worry about is making sure I have the grades and money to follow through with my plan. That could take some doing, but I'm sure if I put my mind to it I can pull it off.