A new course
Haven't updated in a lllooonnnnggg time. I guess it is because I didn't have anything to say for a while.
I'm going back to school, and getting my Masters degree and become a Mental Health Therapist. I'm the type of person who intuitively knows what I need, for the most part. I ignored my sense of intuition for a long time during the whole affair, and in doing so, became slightly depressed.I could fake a smile. Anybody can fake a smile if they try hard enough.I started to ask myself questions, and these questions manifested themselves as anxieties. I started to fear getting in a car crash on my way home from work.Only later did I find out that this feeling was present because in truth, if I did die in an accident when I was there I subconscously understood I would diein a state of desperation, because I was not pursuing my dreams.
I thought I had to unneccessarily suffer for a certain amount of time before I had the right to actually do what I wanted.This pressumption is ultimately a lie.Since I believed it though I didn't go straight into a Masters program, like I should of. I took a job in retail, because I thought that is what all people just out of college do. Deep down I thought that I had to enter a long valley for a certain period of time and be miserable doing something I didn't want to. Sadly many people do just that, and through a process of slow compromise end up becoming bitter, realizing they have abandoned thier dreams only when it's too late. I decided not to do so.
If I did not make the descision I did, many of my needs would have went unfulfilled. Namely my needs for intellectual discourse (I particularlly missed that one),and to make a contribution to society that I feel is meaningful(which will be done through prespective career). I know I will help many people better understand themselves by becoming a mental health professional: why they think and behave a certain way, help them cope with thier feelings and thoughts; and ultimately, make them feel to some extent; more whole ,serine, and stable.
I'm going back to school, and getting my Masters degree and become a Mental Health Therapist. I'm the type of person who intuitively knows what I need, for the most part. I ignored my sense of intuition for a long time during the whole affair, and in doing so, became slightly depressed.I could fake a smile. Anybody can fake a smile if they try hard enough.I started to ask myself questions, and these questions manifested themselves as anxieties. I started to fear getting in a car crash on my way home from work.Only later did I find out that this feeling was present because in truth, if I did die in an accident when I was there I subconscously understood I would diein a state of desperation, because I was not pursuing my dreams.
I thought I had to unneccessarily suffer for a certain amount of time before I had the right to actually do what I wanted.This pressumption is ultimately a lie.Since I believed it though I didn't go straight into a Masters program, like I should of. I took a job in retail, because I thought that is what all people just out of college do. Deep down I thought that I had to enter a long valley for a certain period of time and be miserable doing something I didn't want to. Sadly many people do just that, and through a process of slow compromise end up becoming bitter, realizing they have abandoned thier dreams only when it's too late. I decided not to do so.
If I did not make the descision I did, many of my needs would have went unfulfilled. Namely my needs for intellectual discourse (I particularlly missed that one),and to make a contribution to society that I feel is meaningful(which will be done through prespective career). I know I will help many people better understand themselves by becoming a mental health professional: why they think and behave a certain way, help them cope with thier feelings and thoughts; and ultimately, make them feel to some extent; more whole ,serine, and stable.