"an i let you get the best of me because there's nothing else that i do well"
i dread packing
i hate it with a passion
so i am putting it off until i can put it off no more
my room is a ridiculous mess. i cant sleep on my bed because theres clothes and papers and my cap and tassle from graduation laying there. my garbage is overflowing with directions to spanky's and all those other way way far concert places and some old mixes i uploaded on to my laptop and the invitation from jared's graduation party a few weeks ago ...
i cant get into my closet because there are boxes upon boxes and shopping bags and crap and crap and crap in the way.
i hate it all.
i hate looking at it and thinking of how much money is being spent on college when it isnt even something im looking forward to.
is life about being happy?
or is it about doing things youre supposed to do?
becuase if its the latter, then fine; i'll go to school, learn, get one of those 9-5 jobs, and live that pleasantville kind of life ...
but if its not about that ....... then i dont know what i'd do with myself, so i guess its better this way, when things are expected of you, and even if you fuck up, at least you're trying .....
...... trying to live up to expectations
i hate this. i dont want to be here. i want to go away.
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ineedsomeone;anyone
i hate it with a passion
so i am putting it off until i can put it off no more
my room is a ridiculous mess. i cant sleep on my bed because theres clothes and papers and my cap and tassle from graduation laying there. my garbage is overflowing with directions to spanky's and all those other way way far concert places and some old mixes i uploaded on to my laptop and the invitation from jared's graduation party a few weeks ago ...
i cant get into my closet because there are boxes upon boxes and shopping bags and crap and crap and crap in the way.
i hate it all.
i hate looking at it and thinking of how much money is being spent on college when it isnt even something im looking forward to.
is life about being happy?
or is it about doing things youre supposed to do?
becuase if its the latter, then fine; i'll go to school, learn, get one of those 9-5 jobs, and live that pleasantville kind of life ...
but if its not about that ....... then i dont know what i'd do with myself, so i guess its better this way, when things are expected of you, and even if you fuck up, at least you're trying .....
...... trying to live up to expectations
i hate this. i dont want to be here. i want to go away.
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ineedsomeone;anyone