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[aappss]

as the days roll by, the more it's piling up on me. the more i forget the whole meaning of this. the more im losing that whole sense of reassurance. i need that again. but it's so hard. it's so out of my reach. maybe to a point where i can't even bare with the fact that it doesn't even exist anymore. i hate to think it, but it's possible.

buut i hope not, i hope not.