Don't Just Stand There, Say Something!!!
Did my presentation for Science Fiction class today. More nervouse than I felt I should've been. I hate stage fright. It's not one of those things i'm afraid of and let myself be consumed by it. I genuinely try to fight it, everytinme I get up for something I tell myself i'm not scared, I take deep breathes, and I relax... And my body doesn't by it. As if it's telling me "No, asshole. This is something you need to fight or fly on, preferably fly".
When I was in high school I had a horrible fear of doing anything that involved public speaking or working in groups. I felt like I didn't know how to talk to people so I decided, I'd rather not do it. Everytime the teachers made us pick our own partners I'd quietly freak out inside my head. Just the thought of asking someone "do you want to be my partner?" was a struggle, and if I needed to get up in speak. I often did what I could to go last and in some cases call off that day. That's how bad I was.
When I got out of high school, me being a big dork. I wrote down a few things I felt like I needed to improve that seriously needed fixing, that I could do in my everyday life. Being able to talk to people was on top of my list, and that's how I got into sales.
Having to talk to strangers on a regular basis really has helped me out, later when I was manager of my kiosk and I had to conduct my own meetings, that helped even more. My public speaking fear went away, for the most part. As long as I know what i'm doing I don't have a problem, and so it went...
But this semester is different, I've been feeling it more than normal lately, it's entirely irrational. In Story Development, I can get up in front of the class and call someone else in the room a douchebag during improvisations, and in my Science Project I'm fifteen all over again. Damn it all...
Tomorrow, I may have to get up and do two speaking chores. The first for my screenwriting one class, I have to pitch my story, and two I need to tell my class of my biggest failure and I fear that I may have the attack again because neither idea is completely ready, and normally my attacks stem from feeling uncomfortable about subject matter. Pray for me.
When I was in high school I had a horrible fear of doing anything that involved public speaking or working in groups. I felt like I didn't know how to talk to people so I decided, I'd rather not do it. Everytime the teachers made us pick our own partners I'd quietly freak out inside my head. Just the thought of asking someone "do you want to be my partner?" was a struggle, and if I needed to get up in speak. I often did what I could to go last and in some cases call off that day. That's how bad I was.
When I got out of high school, me being a big dork. I wrote down a few things I felt like I needed to improve that seriously needed fixing, that I could do in my everyday life. Being able to talk to people was on top of my list, and that's how I got into sales.
Having to talk to strangers on a regular basis really has helped me out, later when I was manager of my kiosk and I had to conduct my own meetings, that helped even more. My public speaking fear went away, for the most part. As long as I know what i'm doing I don't have a problem, and so it went...
But this semester is different, I've been feeling it more than normal lately, it's entirely irrational. In Story Development, I can get up in front of the class and call someone else in the room a douchebag during improvisations, and in my Science Project I'm fifteen all over again. Damn it all...
Tomorrow, I may have to get up and do two speaking chores. The first for my screenwriting one class, I have to pitch my story, and two I need to tell my class of my biggest failure and I fear that I may have the attack again because neither idea is completely ready, and normally my attacks stem from feeling uncomfortable about subject matter. Pray for me.