Time to Vent
Because I can't study, and that's the problem, I'm completely out of it. I don't want to, simple as that. I've been so busy, with other things that need my immediate attention, that writing a paper for Women Studies, and another for Spanish feels ridiculous.
This semester has really tried me, and not because it's been difficult, it hasn't been, but it's been about doing alot of what I don't want to do, and so far this semester, and I didn't do them.
I either skipped the classes or the work, cheated, or flat out forgot work assigned in those classes I really disdained. The two classes I'm doing good in, I'm putting the effort in, but in all honesty the effort required to get A's in those classes has been minimal. Who knows how I would of faired if my Script Supervising actually gave me "real" homework, or if my Spanish professor didn't favor me and looked past some of the mistakes I did on some of the tests and quizzes.
I'm supposed to be working on a project for my Women Studies class right now, but the motivation isn't there. When I think about having to do a social expermient to get a passing grade in Women Studies to get my future degree in Film-Screenwriting, I get this feeling like I'm wasting my time. Like filling up a car with gasoline to fix a flat tire, i'm resolving an issue, but not the issue I should be taking care of. Don't know if I made any sense with that analogy, but whatever.
I know that's not how it is, it's just with my desire to see results immediately lately, and then having to do this for college doesn't honestly feel like a priority I should be concerned about, but I should.
I want this semster to end, I just want C's in my Women Studies class and Biology class so I never ever have to worry about them the rest of my collegiate life. Again it's not that this semester has been hard, it's just that I feel when I'm working on any of these two classes that I'm wasting my time when I can be doing something more beneficial to my life.
That's it, thanks for letting me vent.
This semester has really tried me, and not because it's been difficult, it hasn't been, but it's been about doing alot of what I don't want to do, and so far this semester, and I didn't do them.
I either skipped the classes or the work, cheated, or flat out forgot work assigned in those classes I really disdained. The two classes I'm doing good in, I'm putting the effort in, but in all honesty the effort required to get A's in those classes has been minimal. Who knows how I would of faired if my Script Supervising actually gave me "real" homework, or if my Spanish professor didn't favor me and looked past some of the mistakes I did on some of the tests and quizzes.
I'm supposed to be working on a project for my Women Studies class right now, but the motivation isn't there. When I think about having to do a social expermient to get a passing grade in Women Studies to get my future degree in Film-Screenwriting, I get this feeling like I'm wasting my time. Like filling up a car with gasoline to fix a flat tire, i'm resolving an issue, but not the issue I should be taking care of. Don't know if I made any sense with that analogy, but whatever.
I know that's not how it is, it's just with my desire to see results immediately lately, and then having to do this for college doesn't honestly feel like a priority I should be concerned about, but I should.
I want this semster to end, I just want C's in my Women Studies class and Biology class so I never ever have to worry about them the rest of my collegiate life. Again it's not that this semester has been hard, it's just that I feel when I'm working on any of these two classes that I'm wasting my time when I can be doing something more beneficial to my life.
That's it, thanks for letting me vent.