What's old is new again?
So me and the ex are kinda sorta talking again (details will be shared with some of you in person sometime).
Is it good? Is it bad? I don't know. I'm happy to talk to her again, she seems happy to talk to me. I don't know what to make of it though.
I do feel that sense of "romance" when I talk to her, that maybe the history talking though, but on the flip side of things, unlike right at the end of our breakup and at the end of our relationship when we still hovered around each other.
***It's sad that I would use such a word to describe us at that point, but really, that's how it felt. We stayed close enough around the other person to feel their presence but not enough to let them back in.***
But I digress.
Where I was going was; I don't feel that stress of trying to make something work, i'm not sure if that makes sense, but I don't go out of my way to talk to her. I mean when she does contact me, great. I'm happy, I genuinely am, but I don't lose sleep over it.
I don't know what this'll mean for me in the long run. Though, when I decided to go the route I decided to for myself, it was non-Nirè, because no one could be her, respectively, nor did I want them to.
But this is different, it IS her, and I always told myself that if anyone's ever going to get me thinking romance again, it'd be her.
I have no expectations about this, but there's only two ways for this to go. Neither of which I was up for dealing with, not this soon at least.
Yet I can't lie, it's good to talk to her again.
Is it good? Is it bad? I don't know. I'm happy to talk to her again, she seems happy to talk to me. I don't know what to make of it though.
I do feel that sense of "romance" when I talk to her, that maybe the history talking though, but on the flip side of things, unlike right at the end of our breakup and at the end of our relationship when we still hovered around each other.
***It's sad that I would use such a word to describe us at that point, but really, that's how it felt. We stayed close enough around the other person to feel their presence but not enough to let them back in.***
But I digress.
Where I was going was; I don't feel that stress of trying to make something work, i'm not sure if that makes sense, but I don't go out of my way to talk to her. I mean when she does contact me, great. I'm happy, I genuinely am, but I don't lose sleep over it.
I don't know what this'll mean for me in the long run. Though, when I decided to go the route I decided to for myself, it was non-Nirè, because no one could be her, respectively, nor did I want them to.
But this is different, it IS her, and I always told myself that if anyone's ever going to get me thinking romance again, it'd be her.
I have no expectations about this, but there's only two ways for this to go. Neither of which I was up for dealing with, not this soon at least.
Yet I can't lie, it's good to talk to her again.