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so a lot has happened lately.
ive come to realize, i really do need to change.
im selfish and stubborn, and im too petrified of people leaving me alone.
my relationship with adam is getting better, ive finally learned to trust him.
i've been so scared of every boy that comes along, because of what happened with one of my ex's
ive been so scared that somebody else would break my heart the way he did.
and i'd never get over it.
i've been hanging out with my mom a lot lately.
its really awkward, and to be quite honest, i dont enjoy it much.
i was being nosy on sunday, and i read her texts, and inher inbox were like.
these dirty texts from some guy.
so, i think shes cheating on kieran.
but hey, what do you expect from her?
shes a selfish bitch.
and sadly, when i really examine her, and the way she acts.
im exactly like her.
and thats what scares me the most.
another thing,
i found out my dad is in prison.
hes facing up to 10 years in a state prison because he supposedly stole money.
the funny thing is though, hes only been there for about a month.
where the fuck has he been for the past year and half?
and when i found out about my dad being in prison.
i also found out that he does coke 24/7.
hah. how great is that?
im also failing out of school.
my last report card had 5 F's and a D.
i dont care anymore, i leave school all the time.
and do nothing.
and in class, all i do is text people and bitch about shit.
my life is going down the drain.
im so confused about everything that is going on in my life.
i need to change my life.
i need to change myself.
because, im digging myself into a hole.
and with every day that goes by, im getting deeper & deeper
and its getting harder to get out.
ive come to realize, i really do need to change.
im selfish and stubborn, and im too petrified of people leaving me alone.
my relationship with adam is getting better, ive finally learned to trust him.
i've been so scared of every boy that comes along, because of what happened with one of my ex's
ive been so scared that somebody else would break my heart the way he did.
and i'd never get over it.
i've been hanging out with my mom a lot lately.
its really awkward, and to be quite honest, i dont enjoy it much.
i was being nosy on sunday, and i read her texts, and inher inbox were like.
these dirty texts from some guy.
so, i think shes cheating on kieran.
but hey, what do you expect from her?
shes a selfish bitch.
and sadly, when i really examine her, and the way she acts.
im exactly like her.
and thats what scares me the most.
another thing,
i found out my dad is in prison.
hes facing up to 10 years in a state prison because he supposedly stole money.
the funny thing is though, hes only been there for about a month.
where the fuck has he been for the past year and half?
and when i found out about my dad being in prison.
i also found out that he does coke 24/7.
hah. how great is that?
im also failing out of school.
my last report card had 5 F's and a D.
i dont care anymore, i leave school all the time.
and do nothing.
and in class, all i do is text people and bitch about shit.
my life is going down the drain.
im so confused about everything that is going on in my life.
i need to change my life.
i need to change myself.
because, im digging myself into a hole.
and with every day that goes by, im getting deeper & deeper
and its getting harder to get out.