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On Saturday, I went to Sarah's graduation party. A few of her friends and I were talking. They are asking if I liked college and all that stuff. I overheard some of them talking about how they can't wait to get away from Naples, from their parents, from whatever. All I was thinking the whole time was that college was so different than I thought it would be. I always find it so strange when someone asks someone if they like their school and they say "I love it." I wish I could be that enthusiastic. I don't think I love being at school. I like not having to deal with Jeffrey and/or Steve. But I just don't think I could ever say "I love it." And now I'm basically screwed because the "fun" part is over.
Like, the first year was fun at the beginning even though my room mate was horrible. I don't know... I just feel like I don't do anything and I have no idea what I wanna do with the rest of my life. So I'm stuck taking a bunch of bullshit classes with asshole teachers that I don't need or care about. That's the main thing, I don't care about anything and I don't like anything... therefore I don't want to do anything. It sounds horrible... but I just have no motivation for anything.
I don't know... maybe I'm just upset for no reason.
I'm also kinda bummed because my friends keep cancelling on me. I feel like all I do is go to class and work and when I'm done, I have nothing to do and I kinda don't wanna do anything anyway because I'm too damn tired. Speaking of tired, I'm quite tired right now... tired and hungry. But I can't sleep because I have a test to study for that's gonna kick my ass... and I can't eat because I'm on a stupid diet that's not working and I can't eat anything in the house that we have anyway. AHHHHH!!
I think I have a shopping problem.
Like, the first year was fun at the beginning even though my room mate was horrible. I don't know... I just feel like I don't do anything and I have no idea what I wanna do with the rest of my life. So I'm stuck taking a bunch of bullshit classes with asshole teachers that I don't need or care about. That's the main thing, I don't care about anything and I don't like anything... therefore I don't want to do anything. It sounds horrible... but I just have no motivation for anything.
I don't know... maybe I'm just upset for no reason.
I'm also kinda bummed because my friends keep cancelling on me. I feel like all I do is go to class and work and when I'm done, I have nothing to do and I kinda don't wanna do anything anyway because I'm too damn tired. Speaking of tired, I'm quite tired right now... tired and hungry. But I can't sleep because I have a test to study for that's gonna kick my ass... and I can't eat because I'm on a stupid diet that's not working and I can't eat anything in the house that we have anyway. AHHHHH!!
I think I have a shopping problem.