freaked out
He runs, wishing he could fly
Only to trip at the sound of good-bye (can't we all relate)
wow, you don't go online for a day and you miss all the lj drama.
things have been good. i've been thinking a lot. thinking a lot about change and future and such. i still don't know what i want but the more i think, the more i figure out i guess. change is so crazy. i know i probably say that a lot but it's the truth.
i don't know. it's interesting hearing other people's opinions because sometimes lots of things are just missunderstandings and that makes it easy to hold grudges. which brings me to... i've realized something; i don't hate people. i use that word freely though...probably too freely. when i say it, i don't mean it.
church has changed so much. i feel as though it's probably my fault although i don't like to admit it. i just don't like to be around closed minded, anal, people. i'm definetly not saying that's all of the church. there are a lot of people there i truly love and respect but there are so many people i feel just bubble themselves off. in life we can't protect ourselves from the world. we have to open ourselves up because if we don't we don't truly live and don't truely know anything until we've experienced something else. that's what i've been doing, or trying to do. open up and experience. people seem to have problems with that. that makes me sad but i'm not going to stop learing and experiencing just so some people can think i'm safe and a "good person." whatever that is! i mean they don't really know what is going on because they don't ask me so what gives them a right to judge? what gives anyone the right to judge anyone?
okay for the record...i'm not depressed or sad or upset or any of those other fun things i've heard!!! i'm happy happy happy. i mean like everyone i do get upset occasionally but i don't have some crazy depressed problem!
p.s. running away from your problems doesn't make them go away! i hate when people think they can do that.
p.p.s don't just look all pissed and sad...if you have something to say say it!