why...?
[private, difficult to hack by friends]
I should've hated her.
She was cold. Heartless, even. Everyone always spread rumors about her. How she didn't belong here. How she wasn't even human. I tried to avoid her as much as I could, because the way she would look at you, with those piercing eyes of hers... she was terrifying. Then, she turned on us, and threatened the entire base. I was so angry, at the thought of losing everyone. Everywhere, fire, everywhere, screams. I just couldn't handle the thought of it.
I should've killed her. She was an enemy, then. Maybe she still is--was. But the way she sacrificed herself, like her life never meant anything at all, like she never made a difference in this world...
I should've hated her, but now I'm crying, and I don't even know why. We weren't so different after all, in the end, since I once thought my life amounted to nothing.
And now, I wish...
I wish I could've saved her.
Dammit.
I should've hated her.
She was cold. Heartless, even. Everyone always spread rumors about her. How she didn't belong here. How she wasn't even human. I tried to avoid her as much as I could, because the way she would look at you, with those piercing eyes of hers... she was terrifying. Then, she turned on us, and threatened the entire base. I was so angry, at the thought of losing everyone. Everywhere, fire, everywhere, screams. I just couldn't handle the thought of it.
I should've killed her. She was an enemy, then. Maybe she still is--was. But the way she sacrificed herself, like her life never meant anything at all, like she never made a difference in this world...
I should've hated her, but now I'm crying, and I don't even know why. We weren't so different after all, in the end, since I once thought my life amounted to nothing.
And now, I wish...
I wish I could've saved her.
Dammit.