Mar 28, 2006 16:11
Hello everyone ~
I'm a thirty-something in So. Cal. who was intrigued by the intro page for the community. I've dealt a lot with death and dying in the last year. My uncle succumbed to Stage IV lung cancer just about a year ago. I have a close friend from college whose daughter is battling brain cancer.
I've always met the question "what would you do if you only had a year to live" with nervous skepticism. After all, it's the journey that's supposed to count, right?
But having faced the death of a close family member, and the declining health of my grandmother, the question seems more relevant, along with the realization that I don't really have an answer. I don't know what kind of legacy people will remember me for. In my nightmares, I picture a memorial service with people saying "we never really knew her. She was my good friend and I thought she'd be here forever - I always thought there would be time to catch up." I feel like I've been drifting through life as a shadow or a ghost without any real understanding of why I'm here or what I'm supposed to be doing.
Any thoughts on where to begin?
J