Standing on the Edge of Morning
Appreciate this very moment of serenity
because when you wake,
the dawn will have interrupted the silence.
I have been reading alot about dreams and the state of unconsiousness is so completely interesting to me. You can find out so much about yourself when you have no control over your thoughts, and how often do you not have control over your thoughts? Is a dream a wish? You like to think not, but many a time it is. Not exactly, but generally. This really scares me. I don't know if it's all that much true, but I will read more about it.
On a different note, today at lunch I went to get something out of my locker, and since my locker is out in the boonies a teacher has to monitor where I am going, I heard her talking to this one girl who was also going to the back of the school. The teacher asked why she needed to go back there and she said it was because she didn't know anyone at her lunch and she would rather sit by herself in the back. This made me so sad and I really don't know why but I just wanted to cry for her. And now I want to cry for myself. What is wrong with me? I have no compassion for others. She has to sit there by herself every day for the rest of the year and I don't know about you but that would ruin my day. But I don't really know what to do. I mean if I ask her to sit by me it may sound like I am doing it out of pity or it might even embarrass her. I don't know what to do. I don't know why I am worrying about it so much, it's just that I can't deal with this. I guess it's not just this one girl, but in general, people who are alone. How can I do something about it? I guess I can't and I hate it.
because when you wake,
the dawn will have interrupted the silence.
I have been reading alot about dreams and the state of unconsiousness is so completely interesting to me. You can find out so much about yourself when you have no control over your thoughts, and how often do you not have control over your thoughts? Is a dream a wish? You like to think not, but many a time it is. Not exactly, but generally. This really scares me. I don't know if it's all that much true, but I will read more about it.
On a different note, today at lunch I went to get something out of my locker, and since my locker is out in the boonies a teacher has to monitor where I am going, I heard her talking to this one girl who was also going to the back of the school. The teacher asked why she needed to go back there and she said it was because she didn't know anyone at her lunch and she would rather sit by herself in the back. This made me so sad and I really don't know why but I just wanted to cry for her. And now I want to cry for myself. What is wrong with me? I have no compassion for others. She has to sit there by herself every day for the rest of the year and I don't know about you but that would ruin my day. But I don't really know what to do. I mean if I ask her to sit by me it may sound like I am doing it out of pity or it might even embarrass her. I don't know what to do. I don't know why I am worrying about it so much, it's just that I can't deal with this. I guess it's not just this one girl, but in general, people who are alone. How can I do something about it? I guess I can't and I hate it.