what love shouldn't be...
from Tara, my luv... Learn from it people.
i just realised that loving someone should not mean...
losing your self-respect
beating yourself up just to prove a point
doing everything to prove your love to the person in concrete ways (his request, of course)
living, breathing and speaking...HIM
making him your God
alienating yourself from straight friends of the opposite sex and becoming a social leper
making empty threats that you cannot push through with because of the mere fact that you love him
moulding your life to work around his
pretending to be someone you're not for him (i pretend to be more normal than i really am)
shrivelling up like a wallflower and allowing him to control your life
doubting him
waiting pathetically and impatiently for him to call
being ecstatic yet terrified everytime he calls for fear that he'll find malice in whatever you're doing
freaking out when he doesn't call and allowing that fact to ruin your day
wanting so desperately to own him
giving waaaay more than you can possibly give...