*Shawty YOU dont K n O W m E**
ahh today i feel like shit :( i have a cold..and i hate it..got up around 10, cleaned and got a shower and shit, went and got my taxes back, im getting $900 back baby!! REALLY excited about that! LOL..Then took the Kids to Baseball and Soccer practice, then Jamie L called me, went and got Fowler we went over to Jamies and smoked with him Terry Andrew and Eric. Then We left there and went to the bowling alley to see my nigga B*Nigh--aww i love those girls!!! im so glad we're all friends again...:)
Well Last night Ben called me and we talked for like 2 hours, and now he wont talk to me again..lol..WEIRD..i dont get him..i really wish i could get over him..but its not easy..i hate it..Well thats it for now..
B*Nigh and Jay*Lee- WOW really excited about this weekend, can't wait for the suprise! lOl!
I was just reading old Journal entries, and i got to this one..and Now im sittin here, back at square 1 again..and now im all alone crying.. Last night- packed my car all day...and then ben came over around 6 and my parents ordered us pizza..then we went back to his house for alittle bit..i had to be home by 10...i said bye to his parents and started crying..and then we went outside and just stood there for about an hour and i told ben that he couldnt cry at all that day and then he looked at me and asked if he could start crying then..it was so sad to leave..we sat on his front porch for an hour and cryed...and then he took me home which was really hard...i didnt wanna leave..i knew that when i got out that was gonna be the last time i could kiss him for awhile..it was really hard to get out of his car..then i went inside and he called me alittle bit after he got home and we talked on the phone till about 1...then i had to get up at 4 this morning and leave.. -i got up at 4 got in my car and my mom drove...i slept till about 9..so then i only had about 2 hours to go..and i drove the rest of the way...we got here..and my parents showed me the new house..its really big..bigger then our house now...then we came back here..everyone took a nap..lol..then we got ready and went to dinner at logans and then we went to michaels and to old navy and to goody's and went shopping..now me and my neice are making shirts for the kenny chesney and rascall flats concert tomorrow night...thats the only thing exciting..and now im waitin for AIM to download so i can get online to see if ben is on...i miss him so much..i cryed the first thing this morning when i woke up, and then in the car when i woke up, and then at dinner tonight..its so hard to leave behind part of your heart...actually...my whole heart..that wast he hardest thing ive ever done..but im gonna stay strong..b/c i know ill be home in no time again to see him...it wont be to long..ill see him in about 2 or 3 weeks..this week is gonna go by fast..b/c its like a vacation, then next week he goes on vacation and thats when my parents move in..and then the weekend after that im comin back home to see him...i can't wait to hug him and hold him..i never really realized how much i could love someone until i had to leave em..i love him more then anything...and i need him more then anything right now..and i can't even touch him...its really hard..well im goin to bed..i love you baby...