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This is stupid. The whole damn coma is ridiculous! I let that no good higher being hijack my mind and body for an entire year and this is my reward? To be in a Coma that I know I will never wake up from? The powers that be are out of their damn minds if they think that is the way I am going to go out. I am Cordelia Chase. The stubborn bitch from Sunnydale. And they couldnt just do this to me!
I could hear what people are saying when they come visit. The whole gang keeps me up to date with the events. Harmony even tells me who is where what in the fashion world. The one person that it was always hard to listen or watch was Angel. If I could make myself cry while I was in this thing, I would. But its not like I could ever answer back. According to the doctors, I was brain dead. Great, I was dead and no one knew. Not Angel. Not Wesley. No one.
I wonder if the PTB could even hear me if I called. But then again, If they heard, that would mean I was truely dead. No, I will not let some coma take over my life. I refuse it. There had to be some other way to finish my destiny because I know for a damn fact that this wasnt my destiny. No one should have the destiny of dying at the age of 22! No one!
"okay you no good powers that be, I know you can hear me!" I thought loud enough for them to hear. "I've had it. Wake me up from this coma! People need Angel. Angel needs the visions. Therefore, Angel needs me! You can't just let L.A's champion be out in the cold when there are people out there who needs his help!"
[open to the no good powers that be.]
I could hear what people are saying when they come visit. The whole gang keeps me up to date with the events. Harmony even tells me who is where what in the fashion world. The one person that it was always hard to listen or watch was Angel. If I could make myself cry while I was in this thing, I would. But its not like I could ever answer back. According to the doctors, I was brain dead. Great, I was dead and no one knew. Not Angel. Not Wesley. No one.
I wonder if the PTB could even hear me if I called. But then again, If they heard, that would mean I was truely dead. No, I will not let some coma take over my life. I refuse it. There had to be some other way to finish my destiny because I know for a damn fact that this wasnt my destiny. No one should have the destiny of dying at the age of 22! No one!
"okay you no good powers that be, I know you can hear me!" I thought loud enough for them to hear. "I've had it. Wake me up from this coma! People need Angel. Angel needs the visions. Therefore, Angel needs me! You can't just let L.A's champion be out in the cold when there are people out there who needs his help!"
[open to the no good powers that be.]