just for the record...
blah fuckity blah blah fuck. that's how i feel. i feel like my world is falling apart but at the same time i think everything will work out if i just let it be. i'm quitting savers. the place that has been my home/family since june of 2004. don't ask me why, because i don't fucking know anymore. i don't know anything. don't get the wrong impression, i'm happy i swear. but seriously, when will it be my turn? to be happy... to have the right job... to be able to fall asleep and actually want to wake up.. to have the boy and the boy have me... I'm sooo fucking tired of giving my all and getting nothing back. caring for that someone and being invisible to them. i know i've said this before and i'll say it again. I fucking give up. whatever happens happens. no more worries for this girl because i'm done. now i'll go to sleep and i'll wake up tomorrow and do the same fucking thing i do every goddamn day. why? because apparently that's all i'm good for.