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Ok so I guess you could say I’ve been avoiding the offices. Or well Wolfram and Hart completely. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to be there, ok so I really didn’t want to be there with it being the enemy which now wasn’t. But I well; I knew she was going to be coming. And I’d have to see her and I guess I’m just not ready to face up to her yet. What can I say, maybe I went out some sort of hero but I sure as hell didn’t act like one at all. I wasn’t some macho guy who had a lot of confidence in the area of woman or shall I say in the area of Cordelia Chase.
I knew she knew about me being here. Or at least she had to. I only talked to Angel a bit since being back. Strange don’t you think. I hope he doesn’t hold me against it at all. It’s not like I don’t want to see him because I do especially after everything but I know now that she’ll be there. What am I even suppose to say to her?
I spent a some time going around. Actually checked out my old place. I don’t even know why, I guess I just wanted to see the place. Didn’t change much, still a bit of a dump just that now some one else was living there. I wish I could get all my old stuff back somehow. But I knew that wasn’t possible. That was one thing that sucked about being dead for a few years and then being brought back.
Besides that I seemed to spend a little too much time at one of the local pubs. Guess the gambling bit was still in me. Which hey I made some money so that was good wasn’t it?
So here I am at some coffee place that has these computer here. I’m doing this update because well I don’t know maybe get some things off my chest. I’m going to head back to the offices now and maybe finally face up to my fears…face up to her.
I knew she knew about me being here. Or at least she had to. I only talked to Angel a bit since being back. Strange don’t you think. I hope he doesn’t hold me against it at all. It’s not like I don’t want to see him because I do especially after everything but I know now that she’ll be there. What am I even suppose to say to her?
I spent a some time going around. Actually checked out my old place. I don’t even know why, I guess I just wanted to see the place. Didn’t change much, still a bit of a dump just that now some one else was living there. I wish I could get all my old stuff back somehow. But I knew that wasn’t possible. That was one thing that sucked about being dead for a few years and then being brought back.
Besides that I seemed to spend a little too much time at one of the local pubs. Guess the gambling bit was still in me. Which hey I made some money so that was good wasn’t it?
So here I am at some coffee place that has these computer here. I’m doing this update because well I don’t know maybe get some things off my chest. I’m going to head back to the offices now and maybe finally face up to my fears…face up to her.