love will tear us apart ...
so i hope everyone's 4th of july was good :] mine was ... okay i guess ? i really wanted to make it to sara's little shin-dig at her house, but i was w/ the family instead, since things w/ them haven't been the BEST lately .
today i really didn't do much - my mom woke me up cuz she had to get some stuff ready for the bridal shower on saturday. my brother's wedding is like in two weeks . i*m excited :) i came home and just bummed around - erika called, it's always funn talking to her, considering i hadn't talked to her in like 2 days, and it felt all akward cuz i`m used to talking to her like everyday. lol - hmm, she filled me in on they're trip to the beach, and from what i hear they had a blast.
anyways, cici came & i went w/ her to buy a raspa & we just talked about things going on. i really like talking to cici cuz she like always seems to understand me. i came home & werido jack called and said he was outside. lol - so i went outside & we talked outside for like an hour. i missed that kid. ever since the accident, i really never had a chance to talk to him. and he wanted me to go w/ him to erika's, but i was scared to get in the vehicle w/ him! lol .
so i*m reading like all these entry's and most of them have been about "friends" and it's werid cuz that's exactly what me & cici were talking about earlier. and as well, i can say that i love my bestfriends soo much. but things have been real weird lately. i mean so much has been going on that i choose to dinstant myself. is this good or not ? i dunno ? but like w/ everything that is going on & stuff - i feel that i have no one :\ and it's dumb cuz i know i do, but they have a werid way of showing it. and then i find out some stuff on saturday from a reliable source that kinda like made me feel even worst. i mean we just agreed on things last week & there's already someone else. i mean what the crap ? and again i fell for something so stupid. and i know it's what i wanted ... to not continue things w/ you anymore, but the fact that in a matter of a week ur already w/ someone else, like it makes me think - okay you never cared ? i dunno ? these couple of weeks have been crazy ... but i still got some friends of mine that care about me & what i*m going through :]
okay well enough of this ... i always go on about how i`m sad and stuff, but whatever - this is MY journal, so i can write whatever i want ;)
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