dead duck.
It's only every now and again that I realize just how confusing life can be.
Which is pretty inconvenient, considering I just got everything on the right track.
I'm supposed to be organized, calm and prepared, but so much has happened in the past year that I honestly find it difficult to imagine how much I've changed.
So. I'm making a little list here to help me out some. I gotta get my thoughts in order.
1. talk to mel about the utilities sitch.
2. grow up and shrug off the giggles and screams of delight I will now need to grow accustomed to that emanate from the basement on my new house. I can only stay bitter because of someone's happiness for so long.
3. on second thought, quit it with the jealousy thing period. get a life.
4. OSAP OSAP OSAP.
5. 300$ tuition fee!
6. WALKS. or something like them. get moving, you lazy bitch!
7. grin and bear the shit Marvic puts you through.
8. smile more.
9. no, really. smile more.
10. socialize? in a good way, not in a trampy way.
11. get over the crush you have on that random guy that comes into the deli every day. he's probably like ... 17. ugh.
12. BOOKS!? what the hell happened to reading for pleasure? get hooked on something good... quick!
13. stop fauning over romcoms. seriously.
14. gossip girl is a guilty pleasure. chuck bass is a guilty pleasure. don't let it melt your brain into horrible teenage mush.
16. FINISH THE DRIVERS BOOK AND GET YOUR G1. fuck.
17. take your time. you have plenty more of it.
18. date with mel! soon!
19. talk to dad more. listen more. stop worrying about him and enjoy what we have.
20. see colm before he leaves. if he leaves. stop worrying. he might not go.
a lot of that didn't make a whole load of sense. not even to me, really. but whatever. keywords help.
just gotta keep going. try not to linger too long.
Which is pretty inconvenient, considering I just got everything on the right track.
I'm supposed to be organized, calm and prepared, but so much has happened in the past year that I honestly find it difficult to imagine how much I've changed.
So. I'm making a little list here to help me out some. I gotta get my thoughts in order.
1. talk to mel about the utilities sitch.
2. grow up and shrug off the giggles and screams of delight I will now need to grow accustomed to that emanate from the basement on my new house. I can only stay bitter because of someone's happiness for so long.
3. on second thought, quit it with the jealousy thing period. get a life.
4. OSAP OSAP OSAP.
5. 300$ tuition fee!
6. WALKS. or something like them. get moving, you lazy bitch!
7. grin and bear the shit Marvic puts you through.
8. smile more.
9. no, really. smile more.
10. socialize? in a good way, not in a trampy way.
11. get over the crush you have on that random guy that comes into the deli every day. he's probably like ... 17. ugh.
12. BOOKS!? what the hell happened to reading for pleasure? get hooked on something good... quick!
13. stop fauning over romcoms. seriously.
14. gossip girl is a guilty pleasure. chuck bass is a guilty pleasure. don't let it melt your brain into horrible teenage mush.
16. FINISH THE DRIVERS BOOK AND GET YOUR G1. fuck.
17. take your time. you have plenty more of it.
18. date with mel! soon!
19. talk to dad more. listen more. stop worrying about him and enjoy what we have.
20. see colm before he leaves. if he leaves. stop worrying. he might not go.
a lot of that didn't make a whole load of sense. not even to me, really. but whatever. keywords help.
just gotta keep going. try not to linger too long.