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Auditions for the nutcracker were last night. They sucked. I sucked. I was really distracted and I was terrible at the routine they gave us and I'm almost 100 percent sure I didnt get the lead. Whatever.
Maybe I was thinking about the pod person that has replaced my boyfriend as of late. Or the fact that my parents want to send me to my grandparents. Or the fact that the reason spinner probably isnt interested in me is because I was trying to appease marco and I swear I'm turning into a heffer. It's ridiculous. He probably isnt into making out with barnyard animals.
Went out for ice cream with spinner the other night. It was like dating a mime. It was fun. He got some weird madeup ice cream flavor and proceeded to get it all over himself like a crazy person. Which I guess made him all upset so he tried to get my ice cream all over me? Not cool. I had to retaliate. It had the potential to get ugly but we ran out of ice cream and just hung out at his house instead.
It really sucks to be really into being with someone and feel like, suddenly, fo rno reason, he's not really into you. I've never had this happen. I've also never cared for anybody like I care about spinner. It weirds me out a lot. I hate this bad feeling I have in the pit of my stomach lately when I am around him. I just wish I knew what I did wrong. Why he's so upset. I just wish he wolud talk to me and I could help him try to fix whatever's bugging him and he could go back to joking and being my lame dorky boyfriend. Ugh.
Marco says it's time to bury the hatchet. I dont know if I have the strength.
Maybe I was thinking about the pod person that has replaced my boyfriend as of late. Or the fact that my parents want to send me to my grandparents. Or the fact that the reason spinner probably isnt interested in me is because I was trying to appease marco and I swear I'm turning into a heffer. It's ridiculous. He probably isnt into making out with barnyard animals.
Went out for ice cream with spinner the other night. It was like dating a mime. It was fun. He got some weird madeup ice cream flavor and proceeded to get it all over himself like a crazy person. Which I guess made him all upset so he tried to get my ice cream all over me? Not cool. I had to retaliate. It had the potential to get ugly but we ran out of ice cream and just hung out at his house instead.
It really sucks to be really into being with someone and feel like, suddenly, fo rno reason, he's not really into you. I've never had this happen. I've also never cared for anybody like I care about spinner. It weirds me out a lot. I hate this bad feeling I have in the pit of my stomach lately when I am around him. I just wish I knew what I did wrong. Why he's so upset. I just wish he wolud talk to me and I could help him try to fix whatever's bugging him and he could go back to joking and being my lame dorky boyfriend. Ugh.
Marco says it's time to bury the hatchet. I dont know if I have the strength.