hypothermia, anyone?
I'm feelng a little crazy with all this free time on my hands. That coupled with generally hating the weeks leading up to/surrounding my birthday and Christmas plus the instability from falling off the roof is just a recipe for disaster. At least though I'm able to look at it from the outside too and get a good laugh over it.
When I'm not sleeing or contemplating going for a swim in the lake, I've been burning through books like they are going out of style. That and looking for/applying to/interviewing for jobs. I had one interview on Tuesday and accepted that on Wednesday. Its only 10 hours a week, but that will help to keep a roof over my head, etc.
I had another interview on Wednesday and then a second interview on Thursday for a full time, big girl job with good benefits and everything, which although not in the education field, would certainly allow me to get my loans paid off and start actually saving money again.. My interviews went splendidly, but I was informed after the fact that I may not get the job because I am related to someone who works there. Their company policy states that this is okay unless one reports directly to the other (not the case), but I have a feeling that it may be held against me.. that and they'd pay me about 2K more than they would for someone with less experience or w/o a bachelors. I'm really annoyed about it but trying not to stress over it.
As if reading my mind the boys' mom called me not an hour ago to ask if I would like my old nannying position back. If the Aetna gig falls through, I'll take them up on it. I'll have to continue paying through the vagina for my private health insurance, etc., but at least I will have steady income in a stress-free environment and will be able to pay my loans off/down, just not as quickly as with Aetna. I'd still have ample amounts of free time too.. only working every other Sat/Sun, T & Th from 6:30 to 11:30 and then M-F 15:30 to 18:30. which I guess works out to almost full time hours.. but yeah, I was actually hoping to be working 58 hours a week.
I'm much calmer now that Connie has called.. maybe I'll even enjoy myself tonight. Syed & I are going out for my birthday, but I got the feeling that it'll be like a chore for him, and then I'd rather just stay home and cry about it, sans him. Seriously, sometimes I think everyone would be so much better off if I just disappeared into the woods for the week or two surrounding my birthday and Christmas.
I asked my dad to come over for dinner on Christmas eve, but he said he'd have to think about it.. which is really just his way of passively saying no.
I did spend a whole two hours or so with him on Wednesday when I was selling the Mogoat though. I'm happy that he stayed at the station with me.. happy to see the car replaced with a wad of cash for me too. Although I'm now kicking myself for letting it go for what I did.. my brother, trying to make me feel better.. and really, I know he is right, said that I could have put a sign in the window/ad on Craigslist/etc and then dealt with douchebags calling, coming to see it, haggling, etc and then only getting $100 more for it, so I should just be happy that it is done and over with, and I am.. to a point.. but still, disappointed with myself. And as always, overly concerned with how I may come off as a result of it.
Gee, now should I take a bath or sleep some more? I really have so much to do around here, but am completely lacking in motivation.
My grades were finally posted today - another 4.0 semester, thankyouverymuch - which means I can apply for certification.. and should.. but I'd rather sleep.
Syed will be home around 7 and then we will go out. I want to clean up before he gets here, but again, where is my motivation. I'm kind of disgusted with myself for what a slob I turned into this semester.. I try to make excuses for myself, but yeah.. no reason to leave dishes sitting in the sink since Monday.
I'm moving out of here for May 1st, and I'm trying to decide if I want to stay solo or if I should find a roommate(s). Living with others helps me keep my shit in check.. and that's a very good thing..
When I'm not sleeing or contemplating going for a swim in the lake, I've been burning through books like they are going out of style. That and looking for/applying to/interviewing for jobs. I had one interview on Tuesday and accepted that on Wednesday. Its only 10 hours a week, but that will help to keep a roof over my head, etc.
I had another interview on Wednesday and then a second interview on Thursday for a full time, big girl job with good benefits and everything, which although not in the education field, would certainly allow me to get my loans paid off and start actually saving money again.. My interviews went splendidly, but I was informed after the fact that I may not get the job because I am related to someone who works there. Their company policy states that this is okay unless one reports directly to the other (not the case), but I have a feeling that it may be held against me.. that and they'd pay me about 2K more than they would for someone with less experience or w/o a bachelors. I'm really annoyed about it but trying not to stress over it.
As if reading my mind the boys' mom called me not an hour ago to ask if I would like my old nannying position back. If the Aetna gig falls through, I'll take them up on it. I'll have to continue paying through the vagina for my private health insurance, etc., but at least I will have steady income in a stress-free environment and will be able to pay my loans off/down, just not as quickly as with Aetna. I'd still have ample amounts of free time too.. only working every other Sat/Sun, T & Th from 6:30 to 11:30 and then M-F 15:30 to 18:30. which I guess works out to almost full time hours.. but yeah, I was actually hoping to be working 58 hours a week.
I'm much calmer now that Connie has called.. maybe I'll even enjoy myself tonight. Syed & I are going out for my birthday, but I got the feeling that it'll be like a chore for him, and then I'd rather just stay home and cry about it, sans him. Seriously, sometimes I think everyone would be so much better off if I just disappeared into the woods for the week or two surrounding my birthday and Christmas.
I asked my dad to come over for dinner on Christmas eve, but he said he'd have to think about it.. which is really just his way of passively saying no.
I did spend a whole two hours or so with him on Wednesday when I was selling the Mogoat though. I'm happy that he stayed at the station with me.. happy to see the car replaced with a wad of cash for me too. Although I'm now kicking myself for letting it go for what I did.. my brother, trying to make me feel better.. and really, I know he is right, said that I could have put a sign in the window/ad on Craigslist/etc and then dealt with douchebags calling, coming to see it, haggling, etc and then only getting $100 more for it, so I should just be happy that it is done and over with, and I am.. to a point.. but still, disappointed with myself. And as always, overly concerned with how I may come off as a result of it.
Gee, now should I take a bath or sleep some more? I really have so much to do around here, but am completely lacking in motivation.
My grades were finally posted today - another 4.0 semester, thankyouverymuch - which means I can apply for certification.. and should.. but I'd rather sleep.
Syed will be home around 7 and then we will go out. I want to clean up before he gets here, but again, where is my motivation. I'm kind of disgusted with myself for what a slob I turned into this semester.. I try to make excuses for myself, but yeah.. no reason to leave dishes sitting in the sink since Monday.
I'm moving out of here for May 1st, and I'm trying to decide if I want to stay solo or if I should find a roommate(s). Living with others helps me keep my shit in check.. and that's a very good thing..