Mental Illness bring us closer together?
Mania is a funny thing. It's kind of great to see life through manic eyes. Everything in the world is heightened. But everything is a dichotomy. The world as filled with evil, so what's so bad about living here in the present. I need to go back to the tenets of living I developed under mania. It was so clear to me, to live with ayurvedic principles and to just follow a few steps to achieve any goal. With all the evil in the world, why would we create more? why can't we all stop complaining and just do what we need to do to keep everything in order? I also enjoyed my whole idea of doing whatever you wanted because no one actually gives a fuck anyway. Because in Amherst, people are so timid and unfeeling. There's nothing to curb your craziness, no creative release. No one helps each other when they clearly need it. Even rocks and homeless people in new york are better than these specimens.
I put off a lot of people during this phase, but I appreciate the people I attracted. I now deem them more interesting than the rest of the lot, for tolerance and open mindedness. To the people who decided I was an annoying bitch, who now look at me with disgust, and didn't try to find an root cause for my actions, i'm going to remind myself that they don't matter much at all. If they wrote me off so easily, they were not worth getting to know either.
A big thanks to the few who stood by. thanks to friends of the mania.
I put off a lot of people during this phase, but I appreciate the people I attracted. I now deem them more interesting than the rest of the lot, for tolerance and open mindedness. To the people who decided I was an annoying bitch, who now look at me with disgust, and didn't try to find an root cause for my actions, i'm going to remind myself that they don't matter much at all. If they wrote me off so easily, they were not worth getting to know either.
A big thanks to the few who stood by. thanks to friends of the mania.