Boring life in a boring town
Got off work an hour ago, came home, hopped in the seat, realized how much my life sucks, and cried. It was so un-manly I almost wanted to cry because I was crying. I think I almost had a nervous breakdown.
I'm 19, on the edge of nothing, going nowhere.
I just moved back to a town I never really liked in the first place because I just couldn't cut it by myself in Austin, I couldn't live in the big city without help, and nobody could help me.
I left all my friends. I left a job I loved.
I'm back, back in salisbury..
I've tried to talk to a couple people online, but I never can seem to break that barrier and find a real friend.
It hurts, it sucks, I can't stand it.
I feel like I'm nothing.
I haven't found a single thing to call my own.
The woman I loved doesn't even want to come here.
But that's something I've already accepted.
All I can do is pray things get better, that my slump right now ends soon, and that someday in the near future I can actually say I'm happy.
Signing off,
Jake
I'm 19, on the edge of nothing, going nowhere.
I just moved back to a town I never really liked in the first place because I just couldn't cut it by myself in Austin, I couldn't live in the big city without help, and nobody could help me.
I left all my friends. I left a job I loved.
I'm back, back in salisbury..
I've tried to talk to a couple people online, but I never can seem to break that barrier and find a real friend.
It hurts, it sucks, I can't stand it.
I feel like I'm nothing.
I haven't found a single thing to call my own.
The woman I loved doesn't even want to come here.
But that's something I've already accepted.
All I can do is pray things get better, that my slump right now ends soon, and that someday in the near future I can actually say I'm happy.
Signing off,
Jake