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He ripped my heart out when he starting dating her. Stomped on it when he became her boyfriend. Tore it apart when he told her he loved her. And then put it in the blender, oven, and then the refrigerator to save for later, when he chose not to be my friend anymore either.
Maybe if he thinks he is gonna get close to you again, he knows that he might like you and care for you again, or he might now. Then he might be afraid of like you freezing up again (which is ok, and understandable) then its a big cycle. His gf might be like a distraction.
Maybe you're right.... And I wish there was something that I could do.... but there isn't.... And that's all there is to it... I have to let go. I cant be a back up... I wont be a back up.... I deserve better than that!
Maybe you're not the backup... she is... And she's being used right now.
Interesting thoughts...... What if I'm not the back up? It changes nothing on the letting go plan or feeling... but it's still a thought.... maybe a hope of someday him realizing the truth..... maybe....
Maybe if he thinks he is gonna get close to you again, he knows that he might like you and care for you again, or he might now. Then he might be afraid of like you freezing up again (which is ok, and understandable) then its a big cycle. His gf might be like a distraction.
Maybe you're right.... And I wish there was something that I could do.... but there isn't.... And that's all there is to it... I have to let go. I cant be a back up... I wont be a back up.... I deserve better than that!
Maybe you're not the backup... she is... And she's being used right now.
Interesting thoughts...... What if I'm not the back up? It changes nothing on the letting go plan or feeling... but it's still a thought.... maybe a hope of someday him realizing the truth..... maybe....