The opposite of what I wanted...
When I went back and looked at that survey for a minute I realized something.......
Tall, blue eyed, blonde haired, athletic, smart, adorable boy... what happened to that dream? What happened to my Matt dream? What happened to that?
Why is it that now the person that I love is the opposite of most of that? He's athletic and pretty tall compared to me... and he can be smart if he tries... well deep down I know he's really smart but it's not the cool thing to do so it's not his surface appearance.... but what about the rest. And what about treating me like a princess. I wanted someone who completely deserved me and knew what a treasure I was. Why did I settle? It was all a matter of the heart.... love cannot be explained.... Will he ever wake up and be the man of my dreams in all the ways that I need now, even though they are different from what I needed then? Will he wake up and see that he is the love of my life and that he needs me too? I'm just waiting for the day.... and sitting here scared that this is forever....
Tall, blue eyed, blonde haired, athletic, smart, adorable boy... what happened to that dream? What happened to my Matt dream? What happened to that?
Why is it that now the person that I love is the opposite of most of that? He's athletic and pretty tall compared to me... and he can be smart if he tries... well deep down I know he's really smart but it's not the cool thing to do so it's not his surface appearance.... but what about the rest. And what about treating me like a princess. I wanted someone who completely deserved me and knew what a treasure I was. Why did I settle? It was all a matter of the heart.... love cannot be explained.... Will he ever wake up and be the man of my dreams in all the ways that I need now, even though they are different from what I needed then? Will he wake up and see that he is the love of my life and that he needs me too? I'm just waiting for the day.... and sitting here scared that this is forever....