Pain doesn't hurt if it's all you've ever felt....
I thought I was done with this. I really did. The way it affects my moods, the thoughts I have, the way I feel, the pain in my heart..... but the good news is, it's not as bad this time, and the pain doesn't hurt so much, and I don't care with all that I have, just most of it.... which means, I'm numbing to the pain right? It means that eventually I'll be totally numb to feeling anything.
Is that good or bad?
I'm sick of the bull shit. I just want to be ok. I just don't want to love him. I just don't want to care! This whole thing is just gay! And all I asked him to do was talk to me about it and apologize.... and it's funny that he can't even do that.... HA.
Pain doesn't hurt if it's all you've ever felt.... and right now, I feel like I've never felt happiness before....
Is that good or bad?
I'm sick of the bull shit. I just want to be ok. I just don't want to love him. I just don't want to care! This whole thing is just gay! And all I asked him to do was talk to me about it and apologize.... and it's funny that he can't even do that.... HA.
Pain doesn't hurt if it's all you've ever felt.... and right now, I feel like I've never felt happiness before....