Happiness is held in the little things
yesterday after school i went to the college so i could see jason. but i got there, got online, and stayed there until he came over to ask what was wrong. i told him nothing was wrong (lier) and that i was just sitting there. he asked if i could take him home and i said alright. i got up to go and everyone else had already left so it was just the two of us left in the student center. he had already packed all my art supplies for me and helped me carry them out to my car. we stopped at mcdonalds to get something to eat, and the whole way there, it was like he couldn't keep his hands off of me. it was great.
we got back to his place and had just began to eat when angel and april showed up. they came in and we sat around and talked for a little while. i got up to smoke and jason followed me...just left his company inside so he could be outside with me. then we went and looked at a few other trailers that they might be moving into...i really like the one with the two bathrooms...i really liked the big bathtub :)
we went back to jason's and then left again to go see jessica at general lee's. angel drove with april in the front seat, so the back was left to me and jason. he opened my door for me, then off we were. we got to general lee's and i know how jason is about pda, so i tried to keep my distance. but he kept following me and holding my hand. i sat down and so did he. then when we were talking to jessica and the tattoo dude, he kept hugging me and kissing me on the back of the neck. it was so weird that he was kissing me in public. usually he gets mad at me when i want to hug him. but he was kissing me.
oh god i love his kisses...the sweet little pecks that he covers me in, and his hugs...i love being in his arms. i feel so safe there, all wrapped up and protected, like nothing could ever hurt me, just as long as i'm wrapped in his arms.
we got back into the car and he immediatly grabbed my hand and held it the whole way home...i love it when he holds my hand. its the little things like that, that show me how much he really does appreciate me. after last weekend i was feeling a little bit taken for granted...like he thought that i was always going to be there. but when he does things like that, it makes me feel wanted, like i matter to him. and i know i do matter to him and that he cares about me a lot, its just nice to hear and see everynow and then.
its days like that, that make me think that maybe it could be worth it to risk it all...that maybe he might be worth it............
we got back to his place and had just began to eat when angel and april showed up. they came in and we sat around and talked for a little while. i got up to smoke and jason followed me...just left his company inside so he could be outside with me. then we went and looked at a few other trailers that they might be moving into...i really like the one with the two bathrooms...i really liked the big bathtub :)
we went back to jason's and then left again to go see jessica at general lee's. angel drove with april in the front seat, so the back was left to me and jason. he opened my door for me, then off we were. we got to general lee's and i know how jason is about pda, so i tried to keep my distance. but he kept following me and holding my hand. i sat down and so did he. then when we were talking to jessica and the tattoo dude, he kept hugging me and kissing me on the back of the neck. it was so weird that he was kissing me in public. usually he gets mad at me when i want to hug him. but he was kissing me.
oh god i love his kisses...the sweet little pecks that he covers me in, and his hugs...i love being in his arms. i feel so safe there, all wrapped up and protected, like nothing could ever hurt me, just as long as i'm wrapped in his arms.
we got back into the car and he immediatly grabbed my hand and held it the whole way home...i love it when he holds my hand. its the little things like that, that show me how much he really does appreciate me. after last weekend i was feeling a little bit taken for granted...like he thought that i was always going to be there. but when he does things like that, it makes me feel wanted, like i matter to him. and i know i do matter to him and that he cares about me a lot, its just nice to hear and see everynow and then.
its days like that, that make me think that maybe it could be worth it to risk it all...that maybe he might be worth it............