If I lost my head...
I'm sick. And kind of sad. More lonely than anything else. We are going to a party tonight. I'm going to be a secretary having an affair with her boss. It will be hott. I want to talk to Ryan. I want him. :( Ughhh. I don't know what to do. If he tells me he doesn't want to be official, it will probably make me cry. I have to keep telling myself, "Don't worry, Ash. Its going to be okay."