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everythings alrite now hun i promise, everythings gonna work out fine.
i wish someone would tell me this. and make me believe it because everything ive worked so hard to build is going to pieces again. my defenses are completely gone and i hate it. i dont like being vulnerable. it hurts. it scares me, in fact...it terrifies me.
and i know no one wants to hear this anymore. and everyone has their own shit.
im not looking for sympathy and im not looking for support. i just want someone to lean on for a while. im sick of struggling to keep my head above the water and pretending i can do it. i cant.
i wish someone would tell me this. and make me believe it because everything ive worked so hard to build is going to pieces again. my defenses are completely gone and i hate it. i dont like being vulnerable. it hurts. it scares me, in fact...it terrifies me.
and i know no one wants to hear this anymore. and everyone has their own shit.
im not looking for sympathy and im not looking for support. i just want someone to lean on for a while. im sick of struggling to keep my head above the water and pretending i can do it. i cant.