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oi fucking vey! i don't understand why it's ok for everyone else to be mad at me and hate me but the second i get mad no one wants to be around me because i'm too emotional or to much of a fucking bitch! i hate this! no one understands that it hurts my feelings too! i hate being alone...and yet when i'm around people i hate it even more, because i get nothing but ridicule! i am feeling entirely overwhelmed....and all i want to do is cry...and be alone....forever...and hate every minute of it...and i know none of this makes sense....but hell...it's better than how i feel right now...please god let things get better....and please don't make me do what i want...today i have just wanted to do the unthinkable so much...and i can't....and it's horrible....but i don't want to do the unthinkable because it would make life even worse....gosh...i just want to sleep.....
sorry...i just needed to vent
sorry...i just needed to vent