I don't even know how to begin..

[a_star_alone]

It"s been so long since i've written in a journal or anything, i've almost forgotten how.

I feel like i have so much inside of me, wanting to just get out, but all my thoughts get jumbled on the way. i can't get my thoughts in order. It's almost like i forget what i feel about what, and it all just morphs in to this big ball of stress and it's crushing my chest. It's seriously hard to breathe. it feels like i'm trying to breathe with a pillow stuffed in my face.

i know that was all basically a big run on sentence, but i don't care, it's how i feel.

I'm not sure what to do about this.