shane you are to good to me...
well i am cool and got tagged by shane corson.. cause... im cool.. so here we go...
1. i like to climb as high as i can. the higher up i am the more relaxed i am. i could just lay on top of buildings for hours on end.
2. things never hurt so bad when she was around.. its ironic that now it hurts just to hear her name.
3. i used to pretend my life was like a movie. now i would do anything to keep it as far from that as possible.
4. ive lost myself, ive lost my reflection, day has turned to night, and ive lost all hope.
5. i met this girl she is cool... and i dont really know her at all.. but i cant stop thinking about her, its wierd.
6. my friends have been there for me so much in the past few months. i hope i get the chance to do the same for them.
7. i knew this kid who ran his mouth alot with out thinking. he always felt bad afterwards but the point is he still did it over and over again. to everyone. is there really any question as to why people get tired of hearing how he didnt mean what he said? did he think i wouldnt reach a point to where i was no longer sympathetic to his condition in the least. bitch.
8. im not sure where i am going or what i am doing in two weeks from now... but im not really worried either. i almost feel like someone else is taking care of it all.
9. i know that you will see everything more clearly when this is all said and done and you will spend alot of time wondering what it was you saw in me in the first place. you will find someone who can make you happier than i did. but you are probably still not listening to a single word i am saying.
10. i would take a bullet for shane corson, hiram pena, ryan westfall, alex peters, and matty mcfarmerson aka gaston.
11. i love phone calls in the middle night. cause i am an insomniac and im always awake and usually just sitting in the dark thinking.
12. i can never go home again. thats not a metaphor either.
13. one time i drank 27 bottles of bud light (i know there was more but thats all i have record of) and walked to 711 with matt, cliff, and levi.
14. when we got back we had acquired around 50 letters off church signs, 3 random signs, a bob the barracade thing, and a shit load of stolen food.. and we had a bike but we lost it somewhere along the way.
15. love, lies, and the massacre that ensued is the angriest song i have ever written and everytime we play it i scream so hard i cant stand up. its a reminder that i will never go back. and i will destroy anything in my way to get what i want.
16. last week i hated everything about myself and my life.
17. this week i realized why i was feeling that way and i layed her to rest for good. fuck you both, you are most definately meant for eachother. i am finding it alot easier to hate lately and for some reason that makes me happy.
18. i know i said i would always be there but im remembering all the times i was and you blew me off and made me feel like nothing. you will be kicking yourself later.. they all do... and not thats not about YOU.
19. i wish i could start over. i really fucked up. take me back to may of 2003. i should have never gone back to that library. this isnt me blaming her, this is me blaming me for making her my greatest weakness.
20. i just read back over this.... i think i have some things to work out still.... it never ends.
i tag osama bin laden and jesus christ. oh and matt farmer.
1. i like to climb as high as i can. the higher up i am the more relaxed i am. i could just lay on top of buildings for hours on end.
2. things never hurt so bad when she was around.. its ironic that now it hurts just to hear her name.
3. i used to pretend my life was like a movie. now i would do anything to keep it as far from that as possible.
4. ive lost myself, ive lost my reflection, day has turned to night, and ive lost all hope.
5. i met this girl she is cool... and i dont really know her at all.. but i cant stop thinking about her, its wierd.
6. my friends have been there for me so much in the past few months. i hope i get the chance to do the same for them.
7. i knew this kid who ran his mouth alot with out thinking. he always felt bad afterwards but the point is he still did it over and over again. to everyone. is there really any question as to why people get tired of hearing how he didnt mean what he said? did he think i wouldnt reach a point to where i was no longer sympathetic to his condition in the least. bitch.
8. im not sure where i am going or what i am doing in two weeks from now... but im not really worried either. i almost feel like someone else is taking care of it all.
9. i know that you will see everything more clearly when this is all said and done and you will spend alot of time wondering what it was you saw in me in the first place. you will find someone who can make you happier than i did. but you are probably still not listening to a single word i am saying.
10. i would take a bullet for shane corson, hiram pena, ryan westfall, alex peters, and matty mcfarmerson aka gaston.
11. i love phone calls in the middle night. cause i am an insomniac and im always awake and usually just sitting in the dark thinking.
12. i can never go home again. thats not a metaphor either.
13. one time i drank 27 bottles of bud light (i know there was more but thats all i have record of) and walked to 711 with matt, cliff, and levi.
14. when we got back we had acquired around 50 letters off church signs, 3 random signs, a bob the barracade thing, and a shit load of stolen food.. and we had a bike but we lost it somewhere along the way.
15. love, lies, and the massacre that ensued is the angriest song i have ever written and everytime we play it i scream so hard i cant stand up. its a reminder that i will never go back. and i will destroy anything in my way to get what i want.
16. last week i hated everything about myself and my life.
17. this week i realized why i was feeling that way and i layed her to rest for good. fuck you both, you are most definately meant for eachother. i am finding it alot easier to hate lately and for some reason that makes me happy.
18. i know i said i would always be there but im remembering all the times i was and you blew me off and made me feel like nothing. you will be kicking yourself later.. they all do... and not thats not about YOU.
19. i wish i could start over. i really fucked up. take me back to may of 2003. i should have never gone back to that library. this isnt me blaming her, this is me blaming me for making her my greatest weakness.
20. i just read back over this.... i think i have some things to work out still.... it never ends.
i tag osama bin laden and jesus christ. oh and matt farmer.