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I had this strange urge to delete my entire friends list. so i came over here, where i already did that.
everything i read lately makes me angry. my class makes me angry. my friends here make me angry. people apologizing and making excuses makes me angry. people not apologizing makes me angry.
i can't seem to win.. i'm just angry.
so i distract myself with books and movies. books are good, they help.
movies do not help. they make me angry.
and i'm not sleeping well.
i'm getting some exercise, i'm going on another bike ride with my dad today in fact, but even so, i have trouble falling asleep at night and wake up dissatisfied with my sleep.
i suppose i could just stay up all night, but that's rather frustrating as well.
i applied for another job, and looked at more temp agencies, but i'm not really very optimistic.
at this point, who would hire me? i'm leaving in just a couple months.
but at the same time, that's longer than my brother has held most of his jobs. so what's stopping me? could i just not mention that i'm going back to school and get a job?
it's also too far into the summer, all the seasonal jobs are filled and all the long term jobs don't want me.
the guys who work at hollywood video (and it is all guys, ((i wonder if that's why i never heard from them))) all recognize me, and at the rate we're going, they're going to know not only my name but everything about me by the end of the summer, just by looking at my taste in movies.
i have a book that's overdue at the library. i hate when i do that. the librarians are mean, i don't really want them to look at me in that condescending way as they tell me that i have overdue fees. i know i do, you don't have to make me feel like a little shit because i owe you a fucking 10 cents.
i need to go, it's bike ride time.
maybe when i get back i'll be less angry.
everything i read lately makes me angry. my class makes me angry. my friends here make me angry. people apologizing and making excuses makes me angry. people not apologizing makes me angry.
i can't seem to win.. i'm just angry.
so i distract myself with books and movies. books are good, they help.
movies do not help. they make me angry.
and i'm not sleeping well.
i'm getting some exercise, i'm going on another bike ride with my dad today in fact, but even so, i have trouble falling asleep at night and wake up dissatisfied with my sleep.
i suppose i could just stay up all night, but that's rather frustrating as well.
i applied for another job, and looked at more temp agencies, but i'm not really very optimistic.
at this point, who would hire me? i'm leaving in just a couple months.
but at the same time, that's longer than my brother has held most of his jobs. so what's stopping me? could i just not mention that i'm going back to school and get a job?
it's also too far into the summer, all the seasonal jobs are filled and all the long term jobs don't want me.
the guys who work at hollywood video (and it is all guys, ((i wonder if that's why i never heard from them))) all recognize me, and at the rate we're going, they're going to know not only my name but everything about me by the end of the summer, just by looking at my taste in movies.
i have a book that's overdue at the library. i hate when i do that. the librarians are mean, i don't really want them to look at me in that condescending way as they tell me that i have overdue fees. i know i do, you don't have to make me feel like a little shit because i owe you a fucking 10 cents.
i need to go, it's bike ride time.
maybe when i get back i'll be less angry.