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I dont know why i decide to post everytime my nails are wet. Whatever.
Big day tomorrow. Heh. Mikey and I had somewhat of an arguement last night. I think it was just because i was retardedly sick and pretty exhausted. Everything seemed kinda wrong and to some extent still does but ill get over that. Im having a moment. I think tomorrow ill just get in the fetal position and cry. Its not that im not excited. Im just not feeling up to it. You know?
theres a lot that im really nervous about that has really nothing to do with the guys. Like... at all. whatev.
Im going to the gym with kyler tonight, if the aerobics room is free im bringing out my slippers and dancing my little heart out. I havent in so long and i really miss it. Really really.
Corey threatened Mikeys life again today, i cant help but laugh sometimes. He's just a big giant tool. He's also convinced that one of these days he'll "get me back whether i like it or not" hmm... creep much? oh well.
Im also still torn about this job in oakville.... a part of me wants to take it because the opportunity is fucking amazing. I couldnt ask for anything better but a part of me keeps crying over the fact that im only 18 years old and dont like growing up this fast. This is probably my last free summer with everyone and i dont want to miss it just to make money. hmph.
I have too much on my mind right now and have to go driving with ping pong tonight. Im gonna get in an accident or something. At least it would solve a few things. Nice knowin most of you.
Edit.
I cant stand sitting here waiting for you
This is no way to live
I'll never forgive you for keeping that from me
You left me vulnerable
You're one chance to prove and you failed.
I know where your loyalties lie
You surprised me more than anyone
Dont call me your best friend
Stop lying to me
Stop lying to yourself
If you dont want this say it
Don't fake it because you think you should
Dont hate me because I've moved on
I have a best friend who doesnt realize it (or maybe they do)
I wish i wasnt so shy
I wish i didnt have to deal with this anymore.
Come home. Come home. Come home.
Big day tomorrow. Heh. Mikey and I had somewhat of an arguement last night. I think it was just because i was retardedly sick and pretty exhausted. Everything seemed kinda wrong and to some extent still does but ill get over that. Im having a moment. I think tomorrow ill just get in the fetal position and cry. Its not that im not excited. Im just not feeling up to it. You know?
theres a lot that im really nervous about that has really nothing to do with the guys. Like... at all. whatev.
Im going to the gym with kyler tonight, if the aerobics room is free im bringing out my slippers and dancing my little heart out. I havent in so long and i really miss it. Really really.
Corey threatened Mikeys life again today, i cant help but laugh sometimes. He's just a big giant tool. He's also convinced that one of these days he'll "get me back whether i like it or not" hmm... creep much? oh well.
Im also still torn about this job in oakville.... a part of me wants to take it because the opportunity is fucking amazing. I couldnt ask for anything better but a part of me keeps crying over the fact that im only 18 years old and dont like growing up this fast. This is probably my last free summer with everyone and i dont want to miss it just to make money. hmph.
I have too much on my mind right now and have to go driving with ping pong tonight. Im gonna get in an accident or something. At least it would solve a few things. Nice knowin most of you.
Edit.
I cant stand sitting here waiting for you
This is no way to live
I'll never forgive you for keeping that from me
You left me vulnerable
You're one chance to prove and you failed.
I know where your loyalties lie
You surprised me more than anyone
Dont call me your best friend
Stop lying to me
Stop lying to yourself
If you dont want this say it
Don't fake it because you think you should
Dont hate me because I've moved on
I have a best friend who doesnt realize it (or maybe they do)
I wish i wasnt so shy
I wish i didnt have to deal with this anymore.
Come home. Come home. Come home.