Dear live journal

[a_sinister_plan]

All has fallen apart nothing is there anymore she still makes me happy. but it is come to the fork and she wants to go west and i am going east the fork comes back together in a place called Boston but by the time we get there from our journeys i don’t think we will recognize each other. it will be that bump into at the supermarket and exchange cell numbers that you put in your phone but never call. this is the last thing I want to happen but she doesn’t see me as I still see her I have drifted I am not the person who she wanted to watch doge ball in her bed with I am not the person who sucked it up and watched pretty women with her I am a person who she doesn’t know any more. I want more than anything to be the person she wants to cuddle with and I want to be back in her arms by first light. but summer comes and goes the wind changes here comes the cold and we all have to grow up again but for me it is only June and the winter is showing me cold days ahead. coffee dates, summer nights, stars and one veranda of a wooden playground could never bring this back. this was the best thing I have ever had and I would kill to have it back. if only she knew I still loved her and if only she knew that she still made me the happiest mad deep down just being there for me but now she has lost sight and the rest is up to fate. I am really going to miss the long talks about life that I could never share with Anyone else so that topic and all my fears of life will have to be put back deep inside. If only she knew i still loved her
So long and goodnight