You Know...

[a_silent_voice]

you never really realize how much you miss someone until you find yourself doing things...
things you only did when they were around.

like driving home from school.
parking.
& lookin at your bedroom window seeing that it was open.
well today...
my window wasnt open.

Coming home realizing someone was on your computer so you couldnt get on.
well today...
noone was on.

Bringing him along just to go to the Grocery store to get stupid stuff.
well today...
he wasnt here to ask.

laying down in bed with him holding you while watching a movie.
having him make you jump at scary parts.
or tickle you when you werent paying attention.
or having him pull you in as close as he could cuase it felt you were too far away.
well last night...
noone was there to scare me.
noone was there to have a tickle war.
& noone pulled me close.

Falling asleep in his arms.
well last night...
there werent any arms around for me to fall asleep in.

Going to bed & in the middle of the night being woken up by someones arms being wrapped around you.
well last night...
nobody wrapped their arms around me.

Waking up realizing that you just slept with the most amazing person in the world.
& for a second everything feels perfect.
& in its place.
well this morning...
i woke up alone.
with only your pillows to comfort me.

I Miss You beyond belief.
& i know that there's no way im ever gonna have you back.
)=
this is the worst feeling in the world.