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I decided I owe it to this journal to sit down and write about how great I feel about something for once. This past vacation has been, with no exceptions, the best vacation of my entire life. Its been full of great times, love, happiness, drugs, and the appreciation of being alive.
I had a lot of time to myself, which gave me time to reflect on the past year. I realized how much Ive changed since last year. I realize that for once in my life I have confidence in myself, and I am happy to be alive. Ive grown so much, and I will honestly say that I have to thank Cristina for much of it. Without her, this past year would have been empty. I wont go on about it, because I know that noone will ever truly understand our connection, our love. Im sure a good amount of people just see it as a novelty.
But I will say, To truly connect with someone beyond simple common interests or attraction to one another, is something that not everyone gets the pleasure of experiencing. People so often ignore, or just want to believe that they have more than just a physical attraction to someone.
To be so compatable with someone that you actually complement eachother, you communicate without having to speak a word, these things have a beauty that is beyond what can be explained in words. You can spend seven hours with someone and it feels like you've been together for ten minutes.
...And just to think I never believed that Id ever find anyone who I could connect with like I connect with her. I would have laughed if you told me a year ago what Id be doing a year in the future.
I have had an incredible year, and I met someone who understands who I am, someone that is more than just a girlfriend, she is lover, a best friend, and a complement to my soul. That, by itself is worth more to me than anything.
This year has been great. I love her, and for once, I love myself.
I had a lot of time to myself, which gave me time to reflect on the past year. I realized how much Ive changed since last year. I realize that for once in my life I have confidence in myself, and I am happy to be alive. Ive grown so much, and I will honestly say that I have to thank Cristina for much of it. Without her, this past year would have been empty. I wont go on about it, because I know that noone will ever truly understand our connection, our love. Im sure a good amount of people just see it as a novelty.
But I will say, To truly connect with someone beyond simple common interests or attraction to one another, is something that not everyone gets the pleasure of experiencing. People so often ignore, or just want to believe that they have more than just a physical attraction to someone.
To be so compatable with someone that you actually complement eachother, you communicate without having to speak a word, these things have a beauty that is beyond what can be explained in words. You can spend seven hours with someone and it feels like you've been together for ten minutes.
...And just to think I never believed that Id ever find anyone who I could connect with like I connect with her. I would have laughed if you told me a year ago what Id be doing a year in the future.
I have had an incredible year, and I met someone who understands who I am, someone that is more than just a girlfriend, she is lover, a best friend, and a complement to my soul. That, by itself is worth more to me than anything.
This year has been great. I love her, and for once, I love myself.