free
Have you ever felt so dead to yourself, so routine, that you have to do something just to shock yourself out of the predictability and prove that you are still breathing?
I did tonight.
So, I hopped the fence to my neighborhood pool and just dove in...clothes and all. I allowed the waters to surround me, to swallow me. I tested how long I could hold my breath.
It wasnt long.
I also tested how long I could stay in there without the fear of being caught forcing me to run out.
That wasnt long, either.
But I did it. And now I am sure that I am not dead. And I am sure I am still breathing. And I like to think of myself as a bit unpredictable.
And I am free.
I did tonight.
So, I hopped the fence to my neighborhood pool and just dove in...clothes and all. I allowed the waters to surround me, to swallow me. I tested how long I could hold my breath.
It wasnt long.
I also tested how long I could stay in there without the fear of being caught forcing me to run out.
That wasnt long, either.
But I did it. And now I am sure that I am not dead. And I am sure I am still breathing. And I like to think of myself as a bit unpredictable.
And I am free.