Happiness ?

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So I know I've been updating like crazy but the end of school means no homework and at night the internet is my main source of fun. This journal entry is mostly about happiness and such or lack thereof. Two of my best friends are having some not so good times in their lives and I honestly love them to death and care about them a lot so things have got me thinking lately. My one friend who I will not name is so unhappy because her boyfriend treats her like crap and no matter how hard she tries she cant seem to get over him or get rid of him. It makes me sad to see her unhappy but in reality its kind of her fault but I guess I honestly cant relate because she says she loves him. I'm sure there would be exceptions when love comes in so I try my best but its hard to relate to her. I dont understand why she stays with him. Why stay with someone who makes you cry constantly and makes you feel bad about yourself ? Your boyfriend or girlfriend is supposed to make you feel like the greatest thing in the world and support you one hundred percent in anything you do so I dont understand her reasoning or thinking but shes a good friend that I miss dearly and I hope that she does realize it because she could do a thousand times better.One of my other best friends who will also remain nameless made me think about other things because shes unhappy with herself and the fact that she doesnt have a boyfriend which is probably what a million other teenage girls think too. Shes a wonderful person and a great friend and I think that if she doesnt rush it and get too discouraged that she'll find someone who makes her happy and likes her for her no matter what. She deserves the best and shouldnt feel like she couldnt and wouldnt get that. I guess I'm different than most teenage girls because I never go out of my way to make a boy like me or whatever. I think it would be awesome to have one of those romances like in the movies or whatever but at the same time its scary. I never felt like I had to have a boyfriend or else I couldnt live like some people do. I think that loves a scary thing because it can make you do some crazy things and the fact that one person can affect you soo much is kind of surreal. Two of my best friends want the one thing that I dont want. I think that my friends sometimes think that boyfriends will make their lives perfect but sometimes it makes them worse. You should be happy before you meet the boyfriend or girlfriend and then the boyfriend or girlfriend comes along and makes your life a million times sweeter. Wait for that person that you gives you butterflies, makes you smile constantly and you cant help but think about them all the time. I guess my point is that dont rush into something unless its real and always listen to your gut feeling. To my two friends you know who you are dont ever underestimate yourself. Theres that one person out there for everyonee. <3 It might take some time to find them but theyre out there. I'm a strong believer in fait and if its meant to be then its meant to be and things will most likely get betterr.
Pinky Swear Promisee.
Always
<3333 ASH

PS. Sorry about it being boring and long but I had to say it and sorry about sounding like Doctor Phil. It just came out sounding that way, I honestly didnt mean to.