Letting You KNow I am NOT Dead
Its been awhile.
Everything is going all right.
I think I've finally gotten on the right track. Its taken alot of hard work and determination to get this going but its working so far.
I have a good support group for the most part, Thank you Amanda, Joe, Dayna, Mike, and Loni.
I spent time in the hospital and got out now were playing the lets find the right med game and we are changing meds on the 9th the one we tried wasn't working well.
They tried to give me Lexapro as well and my sisters explination to the dr about that one cause she knew my state best was that off the meds I was to low. On the meds I was way to high and going going going. We need a medium. So we stopped the Lexapro and now we've discovered the depakote isn't working. Its not a good thing.
Also found out that my TSH levels are off and the numbers were to high which means to little hormone. So I am waiting to hear if I have mediccal insurance or not again.
I have spoken with a therapist once. we will be setting up weekly sessions hopefully soon and get my classes going as well. Lots of classes. Ones for me for myself. Ones for parenting. ones for dealing with chilren like rolland and sedona.
Right now my sister and Joe were finally able to get their home study done and my children will be living with them. Our long term goal after much self searching is letting them adopt rolland and sedona. With everything in the hospital and since then I have sat doing a lot of thinking and writing and came to the conclusion that I will never be able to take care of the children. Not even stable. I think I will have enough of a problem with myself.
I have a friend that knows a lot about the disability things. The places to go. More things that I can get involved in to help me. We'll see how it goes. Going into the hospital was probably the best thing I ever did since this all started. But even the psychologists said this is only the begining of a long hard road but being able to accept whats happened and trying to move forward for once, rather than living in the past is a good thing. She told me that I will have to deal with the past to start a new future.
I just want my friends and family to know that this might be going for the better finally. It can only get better right? I hope so. We'll see won't we. For our futures are what we make them.
I'm getting ready to go see the babies now. I made little craft kits. They love crafts. So I made ladybug and bumblebee kits and we'll probably do more glueing. Sedona LOVES glueing things. ~smiles~ She likes glitter to.. but I'm nixing the glitter I bought her glue with glitter in it I was sneaky.
Rolland and Sedona. Their newest saying is "Thats Tight!"
We went swimming Joe's friends son was there and Miss Sedona the PErfect Damsel in Distress had him barking like a dog and the likes at her beck and call. "bark like a dog before you jump in" The little boy would bark like a dog and jump in. I still smile over it.
She demanded to see my medicine too. She goes "Oh look bubby mommy takes the same pill as so and so at the group home"
But its been awhile since I'd updated or said anything so I thought I would lt you all know how everything is. Until next I speak and I will try to make it more often. Have a good hour, afternoon, day, week, month, year, life...
~smiles~
Everything is going all right.
I think I've finally gotten on the right track. Its taken alot of hard work and determination to get this going but its working so far.
I have a good support group for the most part, Thank you Amanda, Joe, Dayna, Mike, and Loni.
I spent time in the hospital and got out now were playing the lets find the right med game and we are changing meds on the 9th the one we tried wasn't working well.
They tried to give me Lexapro as well and my sisters explination to the dr about that one cause she knew my state best was that off the meds I was to low. On the meds I was way to high and going going going. We need a medium. So we stopped the Lexapro and now we've discovered the depakote isn't working. Its not a good thing.
Also found out that my TSH levels are off and the numbers were to high which means to little hormone. So I am waiting to hear if I have mediccal insurance or not again.
I have spoken with a therapist once. we will be setting up weekly sessions hopefully soon and get my classes going as well. Lots of classes. Ones for me for myself. Ones for parenting. ones for dealing with chilren like rolland and sedona.
Right now my sister and Joe were finally able to get their home study done and my children will be living with them. Our long term goal after much self searching is letting them adopt rolland and sedona. With everything in the hospital and since then I have sat doing a lot of thinking and writing and came to the conclusion that I will never be able to take care of the children. Not even stable. I think I will have enough of a problem with myself.
I have a friend that knows a lot about the disability things. The places to go. More things that I can get involved in to help me. We'll see how it goes. Going into the hospital was probably the best thing I ever did since this all started. But even the psychologists said this is only the begining of a long hard road but being able to accept whats happened and trying to move forward for once, rather than living in the past is a good thing. She told me that I will have to deal with the past to start a new future.
I just want my friends and family to know that this might be going for the better finally. It can only get better right? I hope so. We'll see won't we. For our futures are what we make them.
I'm getting ready to go see the babies now. I made little craft kits. They love crafts. So I made ladybug and bumblebee kits and we'll probably do more glueing. Sedona LOVES glueing things. ~smiles~ She likes glitter to.. but I'm nixing the glitter I bought her glue with glitter in it I was sneaky.
Rolland and Sedona. Their newest saying is "Thats Tight!"
We went swimming Joe's friends son was there and Miss Sedona the PErfect Damsel in Distress had him barking like a dog and the likes at her beck and call. "bark like a dog before you jump in" The little boy would bark like a dog and jump in. I still smile over it.
She demanded to see my medicine too. She goes "Oh look bubby mommy takes the same pill as so and so at the group home"
But its been awhile since I'd updated or said anything so I thought I would lt you all know how everything is. Until next I speak and I will try to make it more often. Have a good hour, afternoon, day, week, month, year, life...
~smiles~